Why? [YiZhan FanFiction]✔️

-12- The Truth Part 2

This is Part 2, so if you haven't read Part 1 yet, go ahead, one chapter earlier and read it.😘

-12- The Truth Part 2

"I tried to reach you as well, but my number was blocked. I searched the social networks for you, but you were disconnected everywhere. I even checked all the universities, but nobody gave me any information. I was about to freak out.

No one knew where you were or how you were doing. Nobody told you the truth.

And I planned to tell you everything when I got back. I also wanted to talk to you about that night in the tent. About how since I was 14 years old my heart beat faster every time I saw you or thought of you.

I knew that you couldn't remember our first kiss and I wanted to tell you about it. Because it was then, just before we were fifteen, that we kissed for the first time.

Our parents were drinking together and when they were all too drunk to notice anything else, you and I stole four beers. I think you remember that.

But after just one beer we were both drunk and after the second beer we were both pretty drunk. I was lying next to you in the grass on your parents' yard. I bent over you and looked into your eyes. You said I looked like I wanted to kiss you and I said I wanted to kiss you and then I kissed you.

That wasn't our only kiss. It happened several times. Whenever we secretly drank alcohol alone. The alcohol made me brave and we kissed and sometimes for hours.

And after our night in the tent, I hoped that you would feel the same as I did and that we could finally be a couple. But then everything turned out differently.

I owe my father for losing the person who was the most important person in my life for me. Ever since the elementary school.

For a long time, your parents and I searched for you. Because they wanted not only that you come back home, but also that you and I can finally be together. I told them how I felt about you and they were sad and also angry at themselves for not telling you the truth right after the fake wedding.

Your sister is now married to my big brother, by the way. She and Hai Kuan have a son together. They moved to Shanghai shortly after their wedding.

My father found out pretty quickly that the whole wedding was a lie. He threw me out and your parents gave me a place to stay. They ended their friendship and their business relationship with my father.

Fortunately, my mother didn't have to see any of that.

ZhanZhan, all I ever wanted was to be with you and that's the only reason I went along with all this. I waited all these years for you to come home.

I didn't know about your wife, her death, or your little Xinxin. Your parents told me just yesterday morning that you didn't want anyone to know.

Honestly, I was really shocked when I saw you at the playground and then I found out that you were a father. Especially since you always said then that you weren't into women.

And that's why I always hoped it would work out between us. That you'd realize how I feel about you and that maybe someday you could feel the same way about me.

Our night in the tent was the first time we kissed without getting drunk. We slept together, and I even whispered in your ear that I loved you. For me, that night was special and so I hoped we could finally be a couple.

I don't know what else to tell you, except that I'm sorry, that I always loved you and always wanted to be with you. I never stopped hoping. My feelings have never changed.

But I also know now that you like women and our night was unique. But I just wanted you to know. I wanted you to know how I feel about you."

When Yibo finished his long explanation, I was simply speechless. Not only that my whole family lied to me and made me believe that Yanli and Yibo were really married.

Yibo had also lied to me, pretending not to want the friendship anymore and even not more than that.

And that Yibo had feelings for me for so long also shocked me. Like the fact that we kissed when we were drunk

Yes well I have a low alcohol tolerance and when I drink, drink more, I rarely remember in the morning what happened in the evening or at night. But that I would even forget something as important as that, I didn't expect.

Back then I wished for nothing more than that Yibo would return my feelings. And then we were two idiots who hid our feelings for each other and pretended we were just best friends.

Neither of us opened our mouths. But Yibo could have said something after all the kissing. I don't know anything about that anymore and it really upsets me now. I mean hello? My first kiss and I don't remember it?

"ZhanZhan?"

"Uh, yes. To be honest, I'm pretty speechless. I don't know whether to be angry or laugh. I mean, my family and my best friend have been lying to me and pretending to me for weeks."

"Your parents said that if you knew it, it would show. Because you can't lie."

"But you could have told me after the wedding. And YOU could have called me afterwards or written to me! But you all remained silent!"

"I'm sorry, Zhan."

"That doesn't do it for me now, Yibo. I'm sorry that your father pressured you like that, threatened you and obviously emotionally blackmailed you. Really, I'm very sorry. But try to understand me too, OK? I was the only one who didn't know anything!"

"Yes, I know Zhan."

"And another thing. I'm not into women. Yes there was Emma. Yes, I loved her, very much. Yeah we got married a year after we met. We were blessed with this wonderful daughter. Unfortunately, Emma was seriously mentally ill and took her own life only five months after giving birth to Xinxin. But! She was the only woman I ever felt anything for. And maybe it was some kind of destiny so I could have the little Xinxin."

"She, she took her own life?"

"It doesn't matter for now, I can still explain this to you. The fact is, I had feelings for you then. I wanted to be with you long before that night in the tent. But because you never said anything or hinted at anything, I kept it to myself."

"I hinted at it ZhanZhan. I really did. Actually, it was obvious. I always hugged you, went everywhere with you hand-holding. I kissed you several times a day, on your forehead, nose or cheek. I used to call you MY ZhanZhan. I never let anyone come near you. I told and wrote you every day that I love you very much. That I missed you, that I looked forward to seeing you again. I told you then, I'm not interested in any girls because I have you. All these are more than clear indications, my dear."

And before I could say anything, Yibo pulls me to himself and kisses me. Geez, in what kind of situation did I get myself into now?