Vicious Lily

Chapter 2

"What happen to you?"

Pumikit ako ng mariin, aakyat na sana ako sa taas para makaiwas kay Papa pero nasa sala siya kaharap ang kanyang laptop, studying his current case.

Binaba ni Papa ang suot na reading glass at bumaba agad ang tingin niya sa aking damit, nakalimutan kong isara ang jacket na pinahiram ni Odette at hindi ko na sinubukan na itago yun since nakita na niya.

"Aksidente lang"

Mapait kong sabi, sinabi ko lang yun para hindi na magtanong pa si Papa dahil buo ang paniniwala kong sinadya talaga yun ng malanding babaeng yun.

"Lilian, don't tell me nakipag-away ka na naman"

Suminghab ako, this is useless!

Nagsimula na akong maglakad without answering him.

"We're still talking!" He said calmly but firmly.

"Hindi ka rin naman naniniwala sa akin, you can think of all thing you want to think of me Pa"

Sabi ko ng hindi siya nililingon, mabilis akong umakyat sa hagdanan kahit pa hindi ko naman narinig ang tawag ni Papa sa akin.

Pagod akong tumihaya sa kama at tumitig sa puting kisame sa kwarto ko, I wonder where's the turning point of my perfect life to this mess I'm experiencing right now and I think it's when my Father said he's going out with his secretary for months now.

I ignore this weight in my chest all day pero lalo lang bumigat at kanina nga hindi ko na napigilan, that guy is the reason why I lost my restrain.

I fall asleep thinking about him and acted the scene in different way in my head, maybe I'm just so tired that my mind trick me into dreaming a scene where I'm the one he's trying to protect that way.

Cold war..

I think ganito ang nangyayari sa cold war, it's been almost one month since my graduation we pretend that we're okay, we celebrate and talk the way we used to talk before but I can feel the tension between us.

Hindi na sinubukan ni Papa na pilitin akong makilala ang babae niya pero alam kong hindi pa siya sumusuko, naghihintay lang din ako na sabihin niya dahil hindi rin ako papayag.

Over my dead body.

For the pass boring weeks wala akong ginawa kundi mamasyal sa mga malapit na mall, I visited coffee shops and even computer shop out of boredom and curiosity only to find bunch of lunatic shouting to each other kahit pa sobrang lapit lang naman nila I only lasted five minutes which I spend chatting to Odette.

Nagbabakasyon ang pamilya niya sa Palawan and I'm so jealous she's having great summer while here I am, wondering around the street doing stupid things.

Bumuntong hininga ako ng makitang puno ang Japanese restaurant na madalas naming kainan ni Odette kapag nag ma-mall kami.

Wala ako sa mood na sumiksik sa mga masisikip na lugar. Lumipat ang tingin ko sa katabing kainan, it's a fast food resto.

Nagkibit balikat ako naglakad na papunta doon, I'm thinking of eating raw fish this afternoon..

uhh well.

Nag order ako ng rice at spicy chicken, I also tried the spicy tuna pie and their hotdog.. and also the famous spaghetti it's been so long when the last time I eat this.

I'm about to pop my last bite of hotdog to my mouth when a voice filled my ears from the table next to me.

"..umalis kasi si Mama kaya ngayon pa ako nagkaroon ng oras"