My Story

Chapter Twenty-One

There are so many things that I like about him now.
One, he saved me from my dad.
Two, he makes me feel safe when I'm around him.
And Third, I don't know, he's just so considerate to me. He probably is like that to other girls, but what do I know.
"Ezra there are two things. I mean one you saved me from my dad, two I like that I can feel safe around you." I said.
"So you still think I'm cute and all." He smirked.
"Yes I do, and it doesn't help the fact that I have to Never mind." I said.
"No say it."
"You know earlier how I told you I was thinking of my room?" i asked
"Yeaaah."
"Well I wasn't thinking about the room I was thinking about you, of how much i want to be with you, but I know I can't." I said. "And being around you just makes it hard when I'm wondering what being with you would feel like. Would it be like in the movies." I shrugged. "Or is it more of like 'Hey this is reality,' type of way. I just wouldn't know, but i wanna know what it feels like." I told him.

I didn't know what to do. For all I know he couldn't want to be my friend anymore.
"Mirana, I'd love to be that for you, but with you, if it does become a thing for us." He grabbed my hand and looked into my eyes. "I want it to be special for you. No bullshit just something you could like and love, but not right now when you are fully ready for this. " He said and I hugged him. I ate some snacks, drank the juice, laid back in my bed and fell asleep.

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I laid in my bed with my mother. She was singing me to sleep. She sat at the edge of my bed the sound of her voice so angelic that it was impossible not to listen. She sang to me every night before my dad came home. She'd tuck me into bed and kiss my forehead saying 'I love you'.
"Mirana you are strong, you are brave, you are everything you could imagine. " she said.

But when time passes by everything feels like the same.
The screaming of my mother comes flowing back. My father yelling at her like everything is her fault. Me hiding in my closet, that little night still in my memory till today. I no longer heard my mothers screams. I heard my fathers footsteps in the hall. My breathing stopped; I heard the sound of my door knob being jiggled. The jiggling didn't stop, he could not get the door open and he started banging on the door. I could hear my mother in the background. "Leave her alone. Don't touch her!" I was scared for my life. Why was he at my door?
In an instant my door what busted open and my dad came in looking for me. He went straight for my bed. I made the tiniest noise and he came right at me. He grabbed me and pulled me out of that closet. He almost hit me when....

I darted up and sat upright on my bed. I was breathing fast, fast that I could possibly hyperventilate. I placed my hands on my face and cried. That never happened before when I was little. I looked at my clock and saw it was six. I looked toward the window and it was still dark. I thought maybe the clock was wrong. I whipped my tears and then I felt something touch my back. I screamed and got out of bed.

"Hey, hey it's just me." Ezra said and turned my lamp on.
"Why are you in here?" I asked sitting down.
"Umm.... I decided to stay here. Your bed is big so I thought I'd just stay on this side." He said.

I laid down and he was about to turn the light off.
"Ezra no. Keep it on." I said.
He laid back down and I moved over toward him. I cuddled into him and pulled the comforter over me more. I rested my head on his chest and placed my arm over him. His left arm wrapped around and placed on my back. I drifted off to sleep and soon I think he did too.

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS EZRA!!?" Anuel yelled.
"Manuel, it's not what it looks like." Ezra said. Anuel came in thinking me and him did something.
"NO YOU THINK JUST CAUSE SHE'S A GIRL YOU COULD FUCK HER?"
"Manuel let me talk."
"NO FUCK THAT I KNOW WHY YOU'VE BEEN WANTING TO HANG OUT WITH HER SO MUCH."
"BRO, I DID NOTHING TO HER! CALM THE FUCK DOWN. IF I WANTED TO FUCK SOMEONE I WOULD GO FIND SOMEONE, BUT I JUST THOUGHT I'D SLEEP IN HERE WITH HER AND NOT HAVE TO WALK ALL THE WAY TO MY ROOM." Ezra was now mad not being able to tell him what was going on. I know Anuel doesn't want me doing anything with Ezra, but nothing really happened.
Anuel left my room and so did Ezra. I can hear them arguing down the hall. I got up and closed the door. I didn't want to listen to any of that. I walked to the bathroom and showered. I got dressed and ready for school. I got one of my new hoodies and put that on. I left my room and they were now arguing in the doorway of Anuel's room. I went to the kitchen and asked if I could have some fruit to go. I waited for it and once it was given to me I left. I walked out the door and off to school. I knew it was going to be quite a distance, but I didn't mind. I was going to school with out them.