My Story

Chapter Forty-Eight

Miranda's POV

"Okay, listen you know that I would never in my life do something you weren't up for. I don't want to hurt you. I just want you happy. I want you to be able to trust me. Baby, you sleep with me this happens all the time. Your ass rubs on me every night, not once have I ever done anything." Sébastien said.

I felt my whole body shake with fear. Sébastien is the only person that I can trust, but why was this so hard for me. I knew he would never do anything to me without my consent. I knew if we were ever to do anything he would ask. I mean he was willing to hide his erection from me.

Once my body wasn't so shaky I got off the bed and walked to my room.
I shut the door behind me and locked it. I got on the bed just to hide under the covers and cried.

I will never get better. I will never be better and it's all my dads fault that I'm this way. I just want to be better.

I held onto my pillow and cried.
I want all my fear to go away.
I don't want to live like this anymore.
I don't want to be afraid of him just because I lived in fear like that with my dad.
"Mirana can you let me in."
"I want to be alone."
"Baby I know, but I don't want you alone in there."
"Sébastien please. I want to be alone right now." I said throwing a pillow at the door.
"Fine, come out when you are ready." I heard him sigh and walk away.

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I woke up from my nap.
I looked at the window and saw it was almost dark, so I didn't have a nap I slept.
I was slowly getting off my bed and I heard a woman laughing. I opened the door slowly and made my way to the bathroom, closing it softly not to make any noise. I did my business and washed up. I just hopped that they couldn't hear anything. I left the bathroom and walked towards Sébastien's room and walked in. I grabbed my phone off his dresser and then walked back to my room. I grabbed a black hoodie and some black joggers. I put them on and pulled the hood over my head. I walked out towards the kitchen while on my phone. I grabbed a water bottle and walked to the front door.
"Where are you going?" Sébastien asked.
"Who is that?" The mysterious woman said.
I didn't answer him I just walked out.
"Mirana!"
I wasn't really going to go anywhere I just wanted them to be alone. I saw that woman's car in the driveway and sighed. I walked down the stairs and just started following the sidewalk to the left.
I haven't eaten anything. I should've got a snack. I turned around and got back inside.

"Mirana where are you going."
"Well she's back I don't think she going anywhere." The woman said.
"I don't care. Babe where were you going?" I looked over at him as I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a small bag of chips, the girl on the other hand looked pissed that he called me babe.
"I'm just going to be outside. I'll be fine." I said walking back to the door.

"You didn't tell me you two were a thing." The woman whisper yelled to Sébastien.
I reached the door and just walked out. I started walking down the stairs and then got waved over from one of Sébastien's neighbors. I ran over and sat with the lady on her porch.
"Are you and your dad having problems?" She asked.
"Oh, he's not my dad." I said sipping on my water.
"Oh, I'm sorry."
"No it's okay he's my friends uncle and I've been staying with him." I said looking at her.
"Who was that girl that was over?"
"Oh I don't know. His girlfriend maybe, she's still there. I just wanted to be alone and give them space."
"I get the feeling. " she chuckled a bit . "Oh look." She pointed to Sébastien's house.
"She is a very beautiful woman why would he get rid of her."
"It beats me.."
we could hear them all the way over here.

"Becca I'm sorry but you have to go!"
"You're caring more about this kid than me!" She spat back at him.
"Of course she's my fucking baby. You just told me you wanted to hang out...."
We couldn't hear them anymore.