-fearful: feeling or showing fear or anxiety.
I remember when I was around 8 I was staying at my aunt's house and my older cousin had just got his drivers license but within a week of getting it he got a speeding ticket my aunt was raging saying how she couldn't begin to understand how he could go as fast as he did.
That's how I feel about summer.
I was struggling to understand how it sped past me so quickly I almost felt angry. My mom had been asking me if I needed any books or stationary I told her we have ages before we have to start thinking about it. Then suddenly Cyrus texted me asking if I wanted to go school shopping.
[Cy-guy🌈]
Cyrus: Hey Jo me and TJ are getting things for school at the mall do you want to join us?
Jonah: why now?
Cyrus: wdym?
Jonah: isn't it a bit early to be getting school supplies
Cyrus: Jonah high school starts in 3 days
Jonah: frick
After an awkward conversation with my mom I went to get all the things I needed. Even during that point I was still in denial that I was going back to school.
It's only now I'm standing next to Amber and Cyrus in front of Grant high school that reality and fear is sinking in.
"What time did you say TJ would be here?" Cyrus asked for what felt like the millionth time.
"Well he was gelling his hair so trust my brother to be late in his first day of-"
"I'm here" a red faced TJ came up behind slinging his arm around Cyrus
"Good I knew I wouldn't be able to face today without you" Cyrus said breathing a sigh of relief
"We'll be fine I'm sure we will" I reassured him
"Yeah but we can't all make friends as easy as you" he said rolling his eyes
The same twang in my chest came back from hearing that I don't know why it hurts as much.
"I guess sorry" I apologised sheepishly
"Hey guys" Buffy called out her hand locked tightly with Marty's.
"Good you're all here ready for your first day?" Amber said happily. We all nodded.
The doors swung open and we all took in the sights around us. I've been to Grant a few times for the occasional tour but something about it makes it seem intimidating but I think that's just because we're freshmen now.
"So to start with you and every other freshman will have an assembly with the principle it's just a short welcome then you'll have homeroom where you'll be given your timetables and lockers" Amber informed us
We all said a collective 'Thank you' and she headed off to her homeroom to start her day as normal. Our group headed to the main hall to have a talk with the principle. As I walked some guy who looked way to tall to be a freshman bumped into me.
"Wanna watch you're going" he scowled
"S-sorry" I stuttered out
It was nothing. Just brush it off.
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