Would it be gay if...?/Jilix

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"Happy birthday" Felix heard a familiar voice say happily through the phone

"M-mom?"

"Hi sweetie" she said and a sweet tone that made Felix tense up, he couldn't believe his mom was actually on the phone with him

"I-I miss you" Felix said hesitantly

"I miss you too, I don't live that far away. You should visit me"

"Really? I would love too" Felix said with a small smile, the realization of the situation not yet set in

"Yeah, I'll text you my address and time later. I got to go now though, I love you" His mom said before she quickly hung up

Felix saved him mom's number in his contacts then put his phone back in his pocket and looked back over to where Jisung was and sighed. Jisung would be so disappointed if he found out what Felix just agreed too. Actually, he wouldn't even let him go. He knew they had a promise to be honest with each other but Felix wanted to see his mom so badly  and if he were to tell Jisung he wouldn't be able too

'Nothing's gonna happen, one secret won't hurt anything right?" Felix asked himself as he walked back up to his boyfriend and hugged him again

"Who called you?" Jisung asked quietly, out of curiosity

"Oh- Umm just another one of my cousins" Felix replied as he tensed up a bit at the question. Felix could lie about how he was feeling and if he was okay or not but this was different, he felt nauseous, he felt a pit of guiltiness already in his stomach but he wasn't going to let himself tell Jisung who it actually was  

Jisung pulled away from Felix and looked at him in the eyes "are you...sure? You seem tense"

Felix just smiled and nodded slightly

Jisung didn't believe him. But They had a promise, Felix wouldn't break it...right?  Before he could say another word Jeongin ran up to them with Seungmin behind him

"I think a shark just tried to freaking eat me!" Jeongin said dramatically

"It wasn't a shark, it was just a piece of seaweed Innie" Seungmin explained as he caught up and walked up to them while Jisung and Felix just looked at them in confusion

"That was not seaweed. I almost freaking died" Jeongin replied shaking his head

"Alright, I think it's time to go home. It's getting late and I think Jeongin needs sleep" Chan said as he and Minho also approached them

"You're one to talk" Jeongin said as he rolled his eyes at Chan

"What are we gonna do about them?" Minho asked as he pointed at Changbin and Hyunjin who were still asleep on one of the towels

"I can drive us all back. We all rode in the same car" Seungmin explained

" I do not trust you to drive" Chan said, knowing enough about Seungmin from the way he texts on the group chat

"I will be extra careful, Jeongin will be in the car so I have to be" Seungmin replied and Chan ended up eventually agreeing

"Are we not having the sleepover anymore?" Jeongin asked

"Oh yeah, I forgot about that. We still can" Chan said then looked over at Jisung and Felix "Do you guys want to sleepover at my house? We meaning me and Minho will make breakfast tomorrow"

"I think that we should just go ho-" Jisung started to say but got cut off by Felix

"Sure! sounds fun" Felix said while smiling

Jisung didn't mind that Felix said yes, it was his birthday after all. Jisung would have rather just gone home considering that he was exhausted but he didn't really care because it was for Felix

They eventually all got to Chan's house safely, Jisung almost fell asleep with his head on Felix's shoulder during the ride there but Felix thought it was adorable...despite the guilty feeling he now felt whenever he looked at Jisung. And he hasn't even actually met up with his mom yet

They were all laying in random places around the living room, Changjin was asleep on the couch, Seungin were both watching the movie that was on the tv trying to stay awake but it was starting to fail, Chan and Minho were both sitting with each other on a recliner, Minho was asleep while Chan was awake scrolling on his phone because he doesn't sleep. Which left Jilix who were also sitting on the floor peacefully watching the movie, Felix was questioning how Jisung was still awake considering how tired he was on the way to Chan's house

Felix felt his phone buzz from next to him so he pulled out and checked it, quickly putting his phone back down

"Who texted you?" Jisung asked noticing how quickly Felix put his phone down

"It was just my cousin again, being her usual dumb self that I don't feel like dealing with right now" Felix explained/ lied...again

"Does she live in Australia?" Jisung questioned and Felix just nodded

"I'm bored" Jisung suddenly said after a few minutes of silence "Do you want to go for a walk?" he asked Felix

"Sungie its dark out"

"So?"

"Chan, can we go on a walk?" Felix asked, looking up to where Chan was

"Be back in 15 minutes or I'm calling the police" Chan said as he continued scrolling through his phone

"Let's go" Jisung said as he grabbed Felix's hand and they walked out of the house

"Woah its already past midnight" Jisung said as he put his phone back in his pocket after setting a timer for fourteen minutes so Chan wouldn't end up calling the police on them "How was your birthday?"

"It was great" Felix replied as he swung their arms while they walked on the sidewalk

"Did anything...happen today?" Jisung asked since he wasn't able to completely push away the feeling of everything being too perfect

"What do you mean by that?"

"I don't know. I've just had a weird feeling, its probably nothing" Jisung said as he showed a small smile

"Sungie"

"Hmm?"

"I love you so so much" Felix said 'and I'm really sorry' he thought to himself

"I love you so so much too" Jisung said back 'I just really hope that this weird feeling means nothing and that nothing actually happens' Jisung thought to himself

Sorry it's a bit late, I accidentally fell asleep 😶