Bite My Tongue (Oli Sykes Fan Fiction)

Can You Feel My Heart?

Arizona was a hot state. Everything was hot and dry and it felt like the entrance to hell. I had to wear mini shorts and a crop top just to stay mildly cool, and wearing it reminded me that I really had to lay off fast food and start running again. The heat didn't seem to bother the guys at all and god knows why but I was beyond jealous that they were able to just wear shorts and a tank top and call it a day; meanwhile I was slowly melting and thinking of shaving off my hair just because it was too hot. It's November why is it still hot here? This was when I mentally cursed myself for losing the only hair ties I had when we were at the last show.

"I'm fucking hungry." Jordan announced rather loudly as we were sitting outside of the van until the venue let us in, because once again we were rather early compared to the other bands and had actually arrived before the venue was even open.

"Why do you guys seem to eat non-fucking-stop?" I asked in a slightly bitchy tone. Apparently "Fucking" was the word of the day.

"That's what guys do! You have a brother you should know this!" And apparently Jordan was going to be an ass today.

"Two brothers, mind you. And neither of them were nearly as disgusting nor did they eat nearly as much as you guys. My brothers combined are less of a nuisance than you alone and you guys know how fucking annoying Phil is and Jason is worse than he was." I was nearly yelling and for whatever reason I was really aggravated. I honestly think the heat was getting to me and going into a cool place, even if it was just for food didn't sound all that bad anymore.

"Anne I'm taking a guess that you aren't a very big fan of hot weather." Oliver said, with a concerned look on his face.

"Hot weather doesn't bother me. The desert bothers me. Let's just go find food. We have about $50 in the van right now which should manage, as long as I'm somewhere I'm not at risk of becoming a puddle I don't really give a fuck." that was really all it took for them to jump up and be ready to find somewhere to go.

They managed to find a vaguely nice looking little town that seemed like it might have a few half decent places to eat. It took a while to walk there and we had to keep walking to find where somewhere with food. As we walked around the small town I walked with Kitty, and decided to talk to him on the way there since everyone else was walking far too fast for me in this weather.

"So, what is it that I have been hearing about you and Mr. Bruce?" he asked, making sure to walk the same pace as me.

"Ben? Nothing really. I mean the other night I walked up to hug him and he kissed me on the cheek. And the off guard kiss at the club. It was uncalled for but it was also totally harmless, but explaining that to Josh was nearly impossible since he saw it happen. He cut things off with me but if he's going to get mad at me for something as menial and unimportant as that then I don't need a guy like that in my life." I explained. I'm sure that Josh had another way of explaining it but I trusted that Kitty at least out of all of them would take my side over his in who to believe.

Just as Kitty was about to say something back, Oliver squished himself between the two of us from the front since he was waling ahead of us. "May I help you, Oliver?" I asked, it a slightly sassy tone. For some reason that seemed to be the only way that I could talk to Oliver.

"I'll leave you two alone. I would prefer to be as far away from your bickering as possible today." Kitty said jokingly as he skipped ahead to walk with Lee and they immediately fell into a conversation.

"I was talking to Lee, when I was up there." Oliver started, awkwardly which was strange for someone as outgoing as he was.

"Yes, I saw that." Apparently, I was feeling quite sarcastic today. I'm going to blame that one on the heat and say that the sun burned away my will to be nice to people until it cooled down a bit.

"He told me about Josh and Ben and everything that happened. I just wanted to let you know that he is totally in the wrong. I'll talk to him about it, there's no reason for him to break things off with you over something so stupid." He kind of tripped over his words as he spoke, like he couldn't get them out fast enough.

"Um, thanks, Oliver. It means a lot but honestly, don't say anything to him. I'm over it. If he's going to get upset before we're together it could only get worse from there right? I'm not into the whole controlling boyfriend thing, I probably have better judgment than most guys anyway." My voice wavered which was strange, why was I acting like this? I was just telling Lee the exact same thing and I was fine.

"If you don't want me to say anything then I won't, but I will if you'll let me." He said.

"Really, Oliver, it's not necessary. But thanks." I answered.

It got awkward after that and we slid back into the group upon finding a place to eat. I didn't talk to Oliver after that really, we barely even looked at each other and I hated that we were so put off with each other every time we had a slightly serious conversation. It was like we had to hate each other when other people were around but we could be honest when we were alone. I was starting to like Oliver more and more every time we had one of those conversations; not that we had them very often. I hated feeling this way about him, knowing that he would never feel the same way. If guys were all over me the way girls were on him every night I don't think that I would care very much for my bosses little sister either. It's just common sense that he wouldn't go through the trouble of being with me when he can be with someone drama free and most likely a little prettier.

No matter how much I tried to make myself stop, I could only think about Oliver. I could pretend to hate him all I wanted but I knew that until this tour was over, he wasn't going to leave my mind.