Whenever You're Ready (S.M & A.C)

Tour

Alessia p.o.v

Me, Liv, Adrian, Eric, Shawn and his crew were on tour. I was really excited on this opportunity that i was doing with Shawn. It's been my dream to go on tour with him and i was thankful he asked me to go with him. But when it all started, there was a problem. And that problem was Camila. Don't get me wrong, I was glad that Camila was on tour. But deep down, I didn't like the idea. Shawn and Camila were very close best friends even right before me and Shawn met on Twitter. Camila has always been in his mind ever since the tour started and it has been making me really worried, frustrated and a little mad. Me and Shawn were still on good terms before Camila joined us.

We would always take walks together, talk privately in the rooms, and we would go out to dinner together. We would do anything together. Our friendship was really, really close. When I was working on my career after high school, he was there to cheer me on and to support along the way. Shawn was someone who was there to make me smile whenever I've fallen down on the floor, he was always careful around me and always treated me nice all the time. He's the person that i could share all my secrets with because i trusted him more. He was more like a brother. I know I have a brother, but Shawn was my other one to me. He would always tell me jokes to make me laugh and he did such amazing things for me. I was thankful for him in my life. Ever since our friendship grew over the years, he meant more to be than a brother. But all that changed, because of Camila.

Camila was who Shawn had his eyes on this whole entire time on tour and they were much more closer than how me and Shawn were. They would always get cozy with each other all the time. And ever since that has been going on, me and Shawn never spoke much. We would talk every once in a while still, but Camila was who he was talking with more and whenever i see her with Shawn, I just hate it. Today, when we were on the tour bus, he was with her again. And I spotted them holding hands but i tried not to get offended in front of him. Shawn stopped getting comfortable around her and spoke with me. When he wanted to talk to me, i tried remain calm.

Shawn: "hey, alessia?"

Alessia: "yea?"

Shawn: "can we talk?"

Alessia: "sure."

Shawn: "i just wanted to thank you for coming with me on tour and for being nice to Camila when she came here."

When he mentioned Camila, i felt my anger coming but i didn't show it.

Alessia: "oh yeah, of course. you don't have to thank me. camila deserves to be shown around and she deserves to be treated nice. also, i'm glad that you asked me to come along with you. it was my dream to be on tour with you.."

Shawn: "really?"

Alessia: "yea, i love it here."

Shawn: "i'm glad.."

I smiled.

Camila: "SHAWN!"

Shawn: "coming!"

and just like that, he ran back to camila without giving me a hug like what he always does. my smile faded when i saw him with camila again. having camila on tour with us made me sick. i try to treat her nice because of shawn. i headed to bed and saw liv.

Olivia: "les, are you okay?"

Alessia: "yeah, i'm okay."

Olivia: "doesn't look like it..."

Alessia: "i'm tired of camila being here.."

Olivia: "why? you should be glad she's here, it has been having her around..she hasn't done anything wrong."

Alessia: "you're not seeing the point here.."

Olivia: "what's the point that i'm suppose to see?"

Alessia: "do you not see how much shawn spends time with her?"

Olivia: "what about him spending time with her?"

Alessia: "he's been distracted with her ever since we started this tour. we're literally in the middle of tour and he's still like that.."

Olivia: "why does it matter to you?"

Alessia: "because it's annoying, and now today i've spotted them holding hands.."

Olivia: "someone seems a little jealous.."

Alessia: "jealous? about what?"

Olivia: "shawn's relationship with camila.."

I hope i didn't hear that right. did she just say relationship? with camila? since when did those two become so close?"

Alessia: "d-did you just say relationship?"

Olivia: "yea, you didn't know?"

Alessia: "no, i-i didn't know that."

from that moment, my heart broke and my throat started to hurt. like you know how when you wanna cry but you hold it in? yeah that's how i feel. i couldn't believe it. and now that i think about it, i am a bit jealous. i didn't understand why i was upset about him with being camila.

Olivia: "ales, are you crying?"

Alessia: "no.." *sniffs*

Olivia: "why does it matter to you if shawn and camila are together?"

Alessia: "you don't see why?"

Olivia: *gasps* do you like shawn?"

Alessia: "no..."

Olivia: "it's pretty obvious that you do, you're literally crying and you're jealous.."

Alessia: "okay fine, i do like him..."

Olivia: "but he's with camila, alessia. you gotta get over it.."

Alessia: "i can't get over it when she's with him, every single time when she's there, i feel like i'm not important to shawn.."

Olivia: "of course you're important to him, you two are best friends."

Alessia: "but what if that all changed? me and him don't hang out anymore...and i miss those days when he used to be with me.."

Olivia: "i'm pretty sure you two are perfectly fine, you gotta let it go. shawn's love is for camila."

Alessia: "you don't understand, liv...i really like shawn...i've liked him ever since we've became best friends...i was just too scared to admit...scared to fall in love..."

Olivia: "why are you scared?"

Alessia: "because boys hate me, they use me all the time...they would be there for me and the next thing i know, they're with someone else...people use me for no reason.."

i started to cry while i said that.

Olivia: "aww ale, i'm sorry.."

me and liv hugged.

Alessia: "it's ok, it was in high school.."

Olivia: "I never knew you liked shawn that much tho..."

Alessia: "i've always had, i was secretly smitten with him. i just act like i only liked him as a friend.."

Olivia: "don't ever be scared to love someone ever again, no matter how much you love them."

Alessia: "what's the point of not being scared? it's over, he's with camila now...he's not gonna turn his back anytime soon..."

Olivia: "give him some time, he'll come around.."

i wiped off my tears which ruined my makeup.

Alessia: "you're literally the only person who has my back now these days.."

Olivia: "i'll always have your back, you're my best friend."

We hugged again.

Olivia: "we need to rest now, it's a big day tomorrow. and try not to keep your mind on shawn and camila because i don't want you to be upset."

Alessia: "I'll try."

And we all went to sleep.

A/N: End of chapter!