Whenever You're Ready (S.M & A.C)

Help Wanted

A/N: I forgot to mention in the beginning of the story that I don't take full credits of the story covers that I put on my shalessia stories! The person who made the edit was actually an Alessia fan on Instagram: @carascafe! She makes lots of good shalessia edits! All credits go to her! Sorry for not mentioning this before! Enjoy the chapter everyone! x

Alessia p.o.v

~Day 19~

During the next day, I was feeling a lot better than yesterday. I finally got the help I needed from my friends and I was really thankful for them. And I was also thankful for my fans and everyone on the tour who saved my life. I was still not going on social media for a while, but I will come back on in like a week or two, or maybe even month depending on how the hate gets. All that matters now was that my life was saved. Shawn was sitting right beside me and we spoke.

Shawn: "Are you gonna go back on social media?"

Alessia: "It depends."

Shawn: "I'm just looking out for you, I'm just afraid you'd be upset again."

Alessia: "I'm getting better now, I'm just thankful that you guys saved me from committing suicide."

Shawn: "I would be so scared if i didn't know that you were going through that. Actually, I was worried when you weren't honest with me about it cause I could see in your face that you were upset."

Alessia: "All that matters now is that i'm still alive because i would've tried to drink bleach to kill myself instead of cutting myself."

Shawn: "Whenever you are going through something, you could always tell me or Olivia or anyone else you trust. I really don't like when you're sad and when people hurt you."

Alessia: "I will, don't worry. I just wish I thought twice before giving myself scars."

He held onto my hand.

Shawn: "They're scars but they're beautiful."

I smiled when he said that.

Alessia: "That's true."

Shawn: "I'm gonna take a break of social media too."

Alessia: "But i thought the hate didn't bother you."

Shawn: "The hate might not bother me but it bothers me that you are going through all the hate that you don't even deserve. People should respect that me and you are together, no matter how much hate i get, i'll always be with you forever."

Alessia: "You're the best boyfriend in the world."

Shawn: (smiles) "No, you're the best girlfriend in the world. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me."

Alessia: "I love you so much."

Shawn: "I love you too."

We kissed. As he kissed me on my lips, he kissed me on my cheek and on my neck multiple times and I smiled and kissed him again a few times.

Shawn: "Now that no one is here, what do you wanna do? We still got lots of time left before we perform."

Alessia: "Do you wanna watch a TV series or a movie on Netflix?"

Shawn: "Sure."

Alessia: "Okay."

We put a movie on and Shawn wrapped his arm around me as i sat right next to him and he held onto my hand. The movie only lasted for about 2 hours. So now, we had less time before we performed. When it was time to perform, we got changed and performed. I performed some songs off my new album that I released. I got emotional while on stage when I was singing "Scars To Your Beautiful" because it reminded me of the hate I was getting and how I tried to take my own life. It reminded me again but how thankful I was that I was still alive today. A lot of people put signs up written in big words "STAY STRONG, ALESSIA." and the other one said: "YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, ALESSIA. The other sign said: "WE LOVE YOU!"

I smiled and more tears fell from my eyes when I was done and i said some words to the crowd.

Alessia: (sobs) "I want to thank each and everyone of you for staying by my side while I was getting hate on social media, I gave myself some scars because I was cutting myself and was trying to end my life because I thought I wasn't good enough for the world and everyone started hating on me for being with Shawn and I got tired of it so much that I didn't know what I was thinking anymore, but today, I got the help from my family and from everyone who was with me on tour. You all mean a lot to me."

Everyone cheered and some of them cried.

Alessia: (sobs) "Before you guys leave tonight, i want you all to think of one thing that you have been going through, what has been bothering you, and what has been putting you down. I want you all to take deep breaths, in and out, and remember that everything will be alright. You are all beautiful and the most amazing people in the world. Also, if you are one of those people who are dealing with bullying online and is having suicide thoughts, don't let the hate bother you. Always be yourself and do what you love. Also, reach out to people who you trust to help you. I love you all so much, thank you for being here tonight!"

Everyone cheered again. More tears fell from my eyes and I started wiping them off. When I was done, I performed my other songs. Olivia was watching me backstage and got emotional on what I said and Shawn got emotional too. After my performance, Shawn performed. When we were done, we took pictures and met with fans. A lot of people gave me gifts and gave me lots of hugs and told me to stay strong and made me smile. I appreciated all the love that I got tonight. After the performance, I was feeling stronger than ever. Shawn stood by my side to keep me happy and we ended the day with watching a movie as we had snacks.

A/N: End of chapter!