Whenever You're Ready (S.M & A.C)

Missing You Already

Shawn p.o.v

Ever since Alessia left the tour, it's been hard for me to focus on my music and on performing. I didn't know why I let my anger take over me. I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that I actually hurt her. And not only did I upset her, I slapped her. I know it wasn't her fault, it was Camila's. I was just really angry that we've lost another kid and this kid was only 8 weeks, not even up to the month stage. It just really breaks my heart that it was no longer here and it was all because of my ex girlfriend.

I feel absolutely terrible for hurting her like that and i was afraid that she would never talk to me again. She doesn't even want to see me either. She left the tour yesterday and I was already missing her so much. With me thinking about her, I knew I couldn't continue my tour. I told my managers to put the tour on hold so I can go home and get myself together and to fix things with Alessia. I wanted to find her but I had no idea where she was. I headed back home to my mother's house and my mom noticed that I was upset and that I was back early.

Mom: "What happened? You're back so soon."

Shawn: "I can't do my tour without Alessia.."

Mom: "What happened to Alessia?"

Shawn: "We had a fight on tour yesterday and I slapped her."

Mom: "You slapped my daughter in law? Why?"

Shawn: "Because I was angry about the fact that we had a miscarriage, the miscarriage was actually cause by my ex girlfriend because she shot Alessia in the stomach. Instead of me getting angry with Camila, I was angry with Alessia. I let my anger take over me and I slapped her."

Mom: "A miscarriage is never a mother's fault. Miscarriages happen without you even expecting it, just like pregnancy. If you're ex girlfriend caused it, then you should be mad at her. Your ex girlfriend shouldn't be anywhere near you guys. And it's never okay to put your hands on your wife, no matter what they did."

Shawn: "I know, I don't know what went wrong with me. I know that I've messed up with big time."

Mom: "Did you try calling or texting her?"

Shawn: "I've tried calling her several times, but she won't answer me. I don't even know where she is right now and she doesn't want to have anything to do with me right now. It really hurts me so much that she's feeling like this, I wish I could just talk to her and tell her how sorry I am right now."

Mom: "Wow, she must be really upset with you."

Shawn: "Tell me about it..."

Mom: "Well, I'm pretty sure she won't be upset with you forever. She'll get over it eventually, just give her sometime to herself and let her think about it. Before you know it, she will come back to you."

Shawn: "I hope you're right, I just hope she knows that I love her no matter what."

Mom: "I know that she knows that, don't ever slap her again."

Shawn: "I won't."

I headed to my room and lied down on my bed and didn't want to do anything. I was lost in thoughts thinking of Alessia. Hoping she was okay. I wanted her back so badly. I just hope she would find somewhere in her heart to forgive me because I didn't want to lose her.

Alessia p.o.v

I arrived at my parents' house the next day. The girls were happy to see my mom and my dad which kind of made me feel happy deep down that girls were smiling again. I was still really hurt. My mom noticed that I wasn't happy.

Mom: "Is everything okay, my dear?"

As soon as she asked me that, I broke down my tears and started crying. My mom told the girls to go to my dad and play with him and they left. My mom walked up to me and we hugged.