Whenever You're Ready (S.M & A.C)

Hate Comments

Shawn p.o.v

~Day 17~

When I saw the hate comments that I got mentioned on Twitter with Alessia, I was really not impressed. No wonder why Alessia was looking upset last night.

Shawn: "Was the reason why you were feeling upset while looking at your phone?"

Alessia: "Yeah, that was why..."

Shawn: "Why didn't you tell me as soon as you saw it?"

Alessia: "Cause i didn't want to upset you.."

Shawn: "Of course it's gonna upset me, but i don't want to see you upset."

Alessia: "Someone just said i'm ugly, now i'm starting to feel insecure about myself..."

Shawn: "Don't listen to that, whoever said you're ugly is blind. You are the most beautiful girl in the world and no one can change that. You don't have to feel insecure.."

Alessia: .....

Shawn: "Alessia, I wouldn't lie about something that i really meant. You're beautiful. You're the girl that stopped people from being insecure about themselves. You showed them that being ugly doesn't exist. You showed everyone how to be proud of themselves. You've inspired many people who have trouble with their sizes, their gender, and how they look. You can't be insecure about yourself. You're beautiful, Alessia and that will never change. If you weren't beautiful, I would still be there for you. And i don't just love you because you're beautiful, I love you for who you are. You gotta keep shining, babygirl."

She started to cry.

Alessia: "That was one of the most beautiful things you've ever said to me.."

Shawn: "I'm saying the truth, this is not just make you smile. I really mean it. Don't let the hate get in your way. Keep doing you. I'm not impressed with the hate either but it's not the end of world, the hate won't stop us from being together. I don't care what anyone else says. I'm thankful for you."

Alessia started to cry a little more and she hugged me.

Alessia: "I-I love you.."

Shawn: "I love you too."

Everyone walked in and saw me crying.

Olivia: "I saw what happened on Twitter, are you okay?"

Alessia: "I will be..."

Eric: "I can't believe someone said that about you and Shawn."

Alessia: "I know.."

Adrian: "That's just harsh."

Olivia: "Please be strong, Alessia."

Alessia: "People hate me for no reason, I always wonder why i'm still alive. No one takes me that seriously.."

Olivia: "Girl, don't say that. You have us and your family. Those haters can't stop you from what you're doing, we want you in this world.."

She couldn't help but just to cry. Everyone gave her hug for her to stay strong.  As soon as she felt better, she hung out and played games with Olivia and the others. As she was playing games with the others, she headed to the washroom and while she was there, much more hate was coming on Twitter and now she was getting death threats for no reason.

Hater: "KILL YOURSELF!"

Hater 2: '"HOPE YOU DIE, ALESSIA!"

Hater 3: "BREAK UP WITH SHAWN OR SOMEONE IS GONNA GET HURT!"

All those death threats were now in her head. She didn't step out of the washroom because i was crying in there for about an hour. She didn't open the door for anyone. Without no one noticing, she grabbed a knife and started cutting myself lightly on the arms which caused her to have scars. She started crying again as she did it a few times. After cutting herself two more times, she put the knife away so no one would see it.

Shawn: "Why are you crying again?"

Alessia: ".....People are saying death threats to me on Twitter now...."

Shawn: "Why?"

Alessia: "Because they hate me."

Shawn: "I'm so sorry...."

Alessia: "I hate my life.."

Shawn: "I am here for you.."

I looked at her arm and saw scars.

Shawn: "Alessia, where did you get all these scars?"

Alessia: "Don't worry about them..."

She covered them with her sleeve.

Shawn: "Where did you get it, though?"

Alessia: "Don't worry..."

Shawn: "You know, i'm here for you no matter what. And you can tell me what's wrong..."

Alessia: "I know..."

She started heading to my bedroom as she was covering her scars. She stayed in her bed and didn't come out. I wanted to be around her but she refused to let me stay with her. She wanted to be alone. She cried herself to sleep. This was literally one of the worst days ever.

A/N: End of chapter!