Whenever You're Ready (S.M & A.C)

We're In This Together

Alessia p.o.v

~Tour ll, Day 3~

The next day when I woke up, I couldn't help but just to cry. I was in so much pain the next day, and Shawn and I had our first fight all because we've lost a baby. I didn't think me and Shawn would have a fourth baby but it breaks my heart that we didn't get to hold onto it and the girls didn't get to have another sister. My appendix was also getting much worse. The pain was getting sharper every minute. Shawn didn't even sleep beside me last night because of how upset he was.

I wish he would understand that it wasn't my fault. I wasn't aware of my pregnancy because I had no symptoms until yesterday. I didn't think our fight would hurt this much. When I tried get down from bed, I felt a really, really, sharp pain. It was so sharp that I didn't want to get down from bed anymore.

Alessia: "Liv..!"

Olivia woke up and saw me in pain as I was trying to get down from bed and she got up to help me.

Olivia: "I got you, Alessia."

Alessia: "Thank you.."

I headed to the washroom to shower and got changed. After my shower, I was still feeling upset.

Olivia: "I'm sorry about your fight with Shawn.."

Alessia: "Don't worry about it.."

Olivia: "It's not right for him to be upset with you like this, it wasn't your fault.."

Alessia: "I know, I couldn't believe he yelled at me.."

Olivia: "I just hope you'll be okay with your appendix, I don't want to lose you.."

Alessia: "I'll be fine, I just need to do surgery to stop it, and I can't perform anymore for sometime cause of it which really hurts me.."

Olivia: "You're in my prayers."

Alessia: "Appreciate it."

Olivia: "Are the girls still asleep?"

Alessia: "Yeah.."

Olivia: "Okay."

For some reason, I started to cry again. Olivia sat right beside me to cheer me up.

Olivia: "Be strong, Alessia.."

Alessia: "I can't, what if Shawn never talks to me again? It hurts me so much that he's upset with me. I love him way too much for him to be upset with me."

Olivia: "Love is pain, you know?"

Alessia: "I know, but I never thought me and Shawn would fight.."

Olivia: "Awww."

Alessia: "At the same time, I'm scared of this pain that I have. I know that I was gonna be fine with surgery, but this pain is too hard for me to manage, I come on tour with Shawn, we fight, I lose my baby, and I get appendix. Why do bad stuff keep happening to me?"

Olivia: "We're all here for you, Alessia. My aunt had appendix before and it was a scary experience for me but she recovered after taking surgery. I want you to be strong. Shawn will find it in his heart to forgive you. After all, he still loves you."

Alessia: (cries) "It's...not...that...simple.."

The girls woke up later and got changed. I didn't want to show my tears in front of the girls but it was hard to fight back them.

Ariana: "Mom, are you okay?"

Alessia: "I think it's time you girls know what's going with me.."