Carly's POV
After my breakdown at Micheal's house, I leave with Calum and we go back to his place. I head up to the room I'm staying in and shit the door behind me. I lay down on my stomach and grab my pillow, hugging it tightly as I cry. I don't think I've ever cried this much in my entire life let alone in the time span of this many days. I hear a small knock on the door, expecting to hear Calum, but it's his mom instead. I quickly sit up and wipe my eyes before she walks in. She walks over to the bed and sits down.
"Your mom called. She's really worried about you."
"D-did you say anything to her?" I ask. I can feel my eyes swelling with tears again, but I blink them back.
"I told her that you're safe and that you and Michael are okay."
"You told her about the crash?"
"She was worried and I thought it would help if she knew all the information."
"Thank you so much. I was trying and trying to find a way to tell her without her being mad."
"She's not mad, she's just glad you're okay." I wish I could tell someone how I'm feeling, but I know that no one would understand. I know that if I tell someone about the raging pain and heavy weight I feel in my chest and that it feels as thought I'm not getting enough air anymore. Every agonizing breath I take feels like my last, but then I breathe again and it feels like I'm dying. I know to some people he's just a person, but to me, he was everything. He's not dead and I know that, but he may as well be.
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It's been a few days since I last saw Michael and I still feel the same. I'm back at home with my mom and school is starting today and I'm absolutely dreading it. I sluggishly make my way down stairs and see my mom making me breakfast.
"Hey honey. I made you some eggs and toast."
"I'm not really that hungry."
"You need to eat Carly." I roll my eyes, put my bag down, and sit at the table. My mom sets the plate of food in front of me and I begin to eat. After I finish my breakfast I hear my phone ping. I look at the messages from Luke and quickly pick up my bag.
"Crap, I forgot Luke's taking me to school. I gotta go."
"Okay honey. Have a good day!" She yells as I'm already out the door. I quickly run across my yard and get into Luke's car.
"What took you so long?"
"Sorry, my mom made me eat breakfast."
"If you throw up in my car, I'm going to kill you."
"Shut up." He lightly laughs and starts our drive to school. Ever since the crash, I haven't even thought once about getting behind the wheel again and I don't think I even want to. He pulls into the student parking lot and I feel my whole body starting to shake. We both get out of the car and walk to the south building of our school. We both have science first, so that's good. I walk into the classroom with Luke close by my side and see the people I'm stuck with for the next year. I roll my eyes seeing Rose Montgomery sitting in the front corner of the room. I head to the back and Luke follows me. I sit down and set my stuff down next to me. The bell rings and soon the teacher stands up and begins to speak.
"Good morning students and welcome to your first day as seniors! How does it feel?" No one says anything. "Well anyways welcome to Physics. I'm M.r Harmess, but you can call me M.r H." He continues to talk, but I block him out. I've never cared about science let alone any of the teachers I've ever had. All of them have been duds and I wont be surprized if he is too. After that class, I won't see Luke until lunch which makes me nervous. I'm terrified I'm going to walk into a class and see Michael sitting there talking to his friends and laughing while my whole body just falls apart. My next two classes are clear though which brings my great relief. I walk into my fourth period and see Ashton. I haven't seen him since sometime in June. When he sees me, his face lights up and he walks over to me. He pulls me into a tight hug and then let's go of me.
"It's so good to see you again. I just had last period with Michael and-" I begin to block him out as well. I feel awful for not listening, but I can't even bare to hear his name without wanting to cry. The bell rings and I quickly find my seat. The lesson is as boring as you'd think it be because it's economics and no one wants to learn about that. Lunch comes rolling around and as I walk to the cafeteria, I see Calum waiting outside the door. I almost walk in the door before he stops me.
"We don't have to go in there. We can eat outside or I can drive you somewhere."
"Calum it's okay. I wanna eat with our friends." Even though I'm going to have to see Michael. I go to walk again, but he stops me.
"Carly I really think we should eat somewhere else."
"Calum, I don't understand what the big-" Then I see what he was trying to keep me from seeing. I see Michael sitting with Rose and she has her head rested on his shoulder, something I used to do with him all the time. I feel my eyes starting to quickly tear up. I turn away from Calum and speed walk to the bathroom. When I walk in, thankfully no one's in there. I silently cry in one of the stalls. How could this be happening to me? Why is this happening to me?
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