Sting :||: Michael Clifford

I know that you're hurt

Carly's POV

I sit in my mom's car with my leg nervously bouncing up and down. It's been months since I've seen Calum and I'm really nervous. I don't know how he's gonna react when he sees me. I asked my mom if she could take me to his house so I could surprise him and she agreed. She pulls into the parking lot of his house and I get out of the car. I make my way up to the front door and take in a deep breath before knocking on the door. I hear a few noises before the door opens reveling Calum. I see that he has a cut open lip and a black eye. 

"What the hell happened?"

"You're back." 

"I got back last night. What happened to you?" 

"Come in and we can talk." He opens the door more and I step inside. "My parents are working so they won't even know you're here." 

"It's fine, but what happened? Why is your face all messed up?" 

"I got into a fight with Luke." He says as he looks down at the floor.

"And he did that to you? What did you do to piss him off so much?" He looks back up at me.

"I said a few things that made him mad, but he said stuff too."

"Cal, you can talk to me." 

"That's thing, I can't. You left and never even bothered to look back. You never called or texted or anything. I feel like I lost you and now that you're here, I don't even know who you are anymore."

"Calum, I'm right here. I'm still the same person that I was when I left."

"You may've stayed the same, but I didn't. I lost my best friend, I lost you. When you left, it felt like everything just stopped. It's like the moment you walked out that door, I lost who I was. I suddenly felt all this anger in me that I had never felt before and I didn't know how to get rid of it, so I started to hurt the people who meant the most to me." I feel tears forming in my eyes.

"Calum, I'm so sorry. I never meant to do any of that to you. I didn't think of who I might hurt when I left, I was only thinking about me."

"You got your heart broke, I don't blame you. I could only see your pain, but I couldn't feel it until the day you left."

"What do you mean?" I see the look in his face change. "Calum wha-"

"Just drop it." 

"I'm not gonna drop it, what did you mean?" 

"I-I can't tell you." 

"Why can't you tell me?" 

"Because you aren't ready to hear it and you haven't been ready to hear it since you started dating Michael."

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"I'm sorry. You mean a lot to me and if I tell what I mean, then things will change and I don't want them to change anymore than they already have."

"Nothing you'll say will change anything between us."

"This will and I don't want it to. I just got you back and I can't risk losing you again." I take a step towards him and grab his hand. 

"I'm not going anywhere." 

"I'm in love with you and I have been since the day I met you."