Billie POV
Me and Jay climbed into the car and I switched the radio on, hearing to sound of Master Of Puppets by Metallica playing through the speaker. I saw Jay's eyes lighten up when it started, she clearly has great taste in music. I've learned a lot about Jay in the short 2 days we've been together. A, she hates fake people. B, she's definitely a no B.S person. C, she has awesome music and style taste. And D, she's super funny. But I can tell there are some things she's not telling me. I don't want to pressure her to talk to me, but I also don't want her to feel like she has to keep secrets. You can tell she's been broken many times over, and has obvious trust issues. But I am her legal dad so I just want her to feel like she can tell me anything. I can see she fears judgment, so she clearly thinks I would judge her for something. Which I wouldn't, but I'll wait for her to come around about it.
Jay POV
I slumped against the car door listening to the sounds of Master Of Puppets on the radio. There I was a lot I wanted to tell Billie, but I didn't want him to look at me different because of it. 1. Obviously being as stated, I'm bi. 2. Being, I feel very uncomfortable about my past, I lived with a foster family for a month once. Yes, only a month. That's how long it took them to decide the hated me, and it makes me insecure about any family relationship I have. They would call me a homosexual creep, pervy, emo, gay,gothic and other horrible things that no one should ever be called. They started off nice but when I told them about my sexuality they freaked. I don't want the same thing to a happen with Billie.
The last thing I have trouble talking about with anyone, even thinking about, was the fact I tried to commit suicide. When I was 12, I got into a huge fight with one of the ladies at the orphanage. She called me out for being emo, bi, goth, and I ran into the bathroom and locked myself in. I had opened a bottle of bleach and was going to down it, just to get the pain of judgment over and gone. I pretty much had to talk myself out of suicide. You see at the time I was listening to Coming Clean by Green Day. I still have no idea what the song is about, but I know that when I listened to the lyrics "I figured out what it takes to be a man, though mom and dad will never understand what's happening to me" spoke to me. I had always thought that the lyrics we're about drug issues, but I was able to apply them to this instance in my life and that's what convinced me not to suicide. That's what I meant by how Green Day has helped me more than I can put into words. They pretty much saved my life.
I know I have to tell Billie all this stuff eventually, but I just don't know when. Let's see if I make it til then end of the month, then I'll think about it.
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Viva La Gloria, Oh Little Girl!
FanfictionJaylen is a 14 year old girl. She's been an orphan for most of her life and she thinks she'll never get adopted. Jay loves Green Day and many other punk rock bands, but she never expected to meet any of them, much less become ........family?
