i trudged into class after dealing with my problem, seeing robert grin at me before the teacher started barking at me for being late.
i rolled my eyes at her and went to my seat beside robert, who got on his phone telling me to look at the messages he just had with ava.
messages between robert and 'cookie🍪🥺'
cookie🍪🥺 robby!! i know you're in class right now but i need help like asap. well, not asap but i need someone to talk to.
robert what's up, cookie?
cookie🍪🥺 promise not to tell anyone? because it's kinda really weird? idk but i already talked to kat about it and she isn't really good at advice that should probably be from a boy's pov and rory will just think i'm being stupid :/
robert awe cookie you know i can't keep secrets 😫
cookie🍪🥺 robby😫
robert okay okay tell me
cookie🍪🥺 okay so this is gonna sound really weird :/ i had a dream last night.
robert what's weird about a dream?
cookie🥺🍪 well, it's more about the person that was in it and maybe how i interpreted it. so yesterday, i went to mattia's because we needed to talk about all the drama and stuff right? and basically, my dream took me back to when he said something to me and i feel like it went all downhill from there? like it got all sexual and it felt like maybe it was my dream telling me that we would never be more than that? like he won't ever like me like i want him to?
robert well, you can't just jump to conclusions like that. you don't know what he wants, have you talked to him at all?
cookie🍪🥺 no.. but that's the problem, i don't want to talk to him and then get my feelings hurt because he doesn't like me. fuck why am i overthinking this, we've barely even talked and i like him. this is so fucking stupid. robert tell me i'm not being stupid and it's okay to overthink like this ;(
robert cookie chill, you're not being stupid. i think you should try talking to mattia, he's not like that trust me. he would tell you if he didn't want to be romantically inclined with you
cookie🍪🥺 'romantically inclined' lmao who the hell says that
robert i do 🥺
cookie🍪🥺 i can see that lol should i message him? how tf do i tell him that i had a sexual dream about him??
robert 'hey mattia, just had a sexual dream about you!! down to fuck?🤪'
cookie🍪🥺 eye- bitch i'm not kairi i can't text him like that be serious
robert you're both short text the same both easily upsetted
cookie🍪🥺 okay okay i get it but seriously what do i say
robert just don't overthink it he'll respond
cookie🍪🥺 robert that doesn't help me 😫
robert 'hey, mattia can we talk?' i mean just tell him what you told me OOHH mattia had a dream too
cookie🍪🥺 he did? did he say what it was about??
robert yeah now go ask him about it
cookie🍪🥺 😑 fine
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"has she texted you yet?" robert asked as i handed him his phone back.
"i don't know, maybe?" i said, grabbing my phone out of my pocket looking at my notifications.
"no, she did post on her spam account like five minutes ago though." i said logging into my phone and pressing on the notification.
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notava mattia if you see this can you text me🥺? i was gonna text you but 🥺👉🏻👈🏻
comments
random user were you guys not just talking shit about each other?
hirokaiysen don't be shy, share with the rest of us :) ⤷notava no, you run your mouth too much
polybioh wanna talk about it in person ? 🥺 ⤷notava yeah kinda 🥺 ⤷ come over after 3?
exit instagram? yes.
the rest of the school day felt as if it drug on, nothing exciting happened.
once i got home, i began to get nervous about what could happen. what if i say something wrong? i always do when i get like this.
the problem was, minutes continued to pass and it finally hit three, then three thirty then four.
i thought maybe she got caught up in something, so i texted her. no response.
hours began to pass, it was now eight thirty and still no text or call. did i do something wrong?
no i couldn't have right? fuck, why am i overthinking this.
if she doesn't care enough to show up, then i shouldn't care enough to stress about it.
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madds talk 🍒 i don't fucking know what this is, i'm sorry:/ i am upset right now and have myself smothered in blankets and sad music playing :) but i wanted to post a chapter because i am forcing myself to actually go to bed before 1 am. I'll probably delete and rewrite this chapter later.
