Apathetic |[D.S]| 1

30. bailed on me huh?

All we do is make up
Then break up
Why don't we wake up and see
When love hurts
It won't work
Yeah, maybe we need some time alone
We need to let it breathe
...

Lou's POV

Daniel left almost five hours ago. After eating this morning which happened to be more near lunchtime because we were up late, he left.

I decided to get myself ready for the rest of the day. I cleaned up my appearance by doing my skincare routine and getting dressed. I picked a regular outfit. A nice long vintage t-shirt that I distressed by myself. I remember buying it at a beach store from Key West when I went down there with Cassidy one time. I paid it with black booty exercise shorts that my shirt surpasses a little bit so I tuck some of it in on the right side of my hip.

I decide to curl my hair and then do french braids into low buns. I pull out a few hairs to frame my face and make it look my messy, pancaking every braid. I then curl my baby hairs again and give it a spray, locking everything in.

I put on some socks and then pair them with my Nike airs. It is five-thirty and I decide to go on a walk around 501 Estates. I never responded to Jake's text so I'm hoping I don't bump into him.

Daniel, on the other hand, has informed me that he wants to go out at seven-thirty with me so he can spill everything about himself. I appreciate that he wants to fix this all but I'm still not sure knowing that he could do that again to me.

I grab my phone and head out. Walking around all the apartment housings. I pass the pool and hot tub, then continue to go in circles around the entire thing.

I'm staring at my phone every now and then. Changing songs and just thinking to myself about this whole Daniel situation.

Is it really worth it? Falling in love with someone who could hurt me if he really wanted to? That guy could have any girl he wanted...and he still could.

Ugh...this is going to turn into a huge self-doubt thing. Where the next thing I know I'm talking bad about myself.

He's so confusing it makes me frustrated. Along with his stupid ass friends that I've already kissed two of them. Guess the two blondes from a week ago make up for what I did. Stupid Lara on his lap though. If she didn't even sit there maybe things would be different.

Jake is good than bad. Kayla doesn't have a clue what's going on right at the moment. Porter is gay and we haven't talked about it. Jagger is...Jagger. Cassidy is gone and I shouldn't talk about her anymore. My high school life sucked ass. I'm messed up and my whole idea of starting over has ended and we're back to high school.

I'm not perfect. Things like this shouldn't happen to me. Falling in love with a bad guy sounds like some shitty fan fiction story with Harry Styles in it...but damn god if Harry was my age-

"No no no! Don't think like that," I cut my thoughts off. I was right about falling for a bad guy. This is all wrong. God, why can't Daniel be gay! This would never have happened...

It probably wouldn't change my feelings though. I'd be in love with a guy if I really liked him and he was gay.

God Daniel makes me so mad. What he's done? What he's trying to do. I don't even know if he wants me like I want him. I probably shouldn't even want him. He's trouble and everything bad wrapped in a package.