The answers to all the questions are in those letters. But what if you're not ready for the answers? What if it was better to not know the answers? Sometimes it's better to know nothing at all, but sometimes we have to know everything. Jungkook can'...
Hello again, hyung. Remember how in the last letter I said how I can't seem to remember the bad memories? Well, I finally did. All the pain I felt when I had to endure my father's hits and words the day I came out, the cuts and attempts to escape this prison of a life, the tears Jimin and I spilled together, the sleepless nights and fatigue after a long day rembering my father's words. Those are just the ones before I met you, before I met Yoongi. Believe it or not, those are the worst in action, but the best in feelings. While my father made me feel useless and unwanted, Yoongi made me feel like I was not enough, like I was a game to play when bored, like I was just some random person he would never have to think of. But then he made me feel like I was in heaven, like I was the most wanted man, the most loved and cherished one. Only to break me again when he lied to me about his fiancée. It still hurts to remember those things, but honestly I don't know if I can compare that to fighting with my friends and losing them over time. The past year was hectic and I wanted you all to be there for me, to support me, to lie to me saying that I will be fine, but I knew better than that. I once again had to endure pain and suffer so you could live peacefully. Have no regrets, hyung. Because you couldn't have done anything to help me. And rather than a fake make up, I would rather have a painful, nice-to-remember break up.
I love you, hyung. Take care.
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