Left Behind

Kabanata 14

DE NIRO

Nakatulala ako habang nakatitig sa kisame. I really feel guilty for being with him. I don't want to ruin other's relationships. I'm not that desperate to get him. I'm a girl too, masakit at madaling magselos ang mga babae kahit di nila sinasabi. If only I know, hindi ko na sana siya sinama pa, hindi na dapat ako sumabay sakanya rather.

If Celine is his girlfriend then I'm happy for them. May mga bagay talaga na hindi mo makukuha kahit anong pilit mong gawin. He was the only man I ever loved before and until now, but the fate won't let us.

"Hoy! What happened to you ba?" the lagalag and conyo girl asked for the nth times.

"Nothing! Bakit hindi ka kumatok?"

Nakakainis naman. Simpleng katok hindi niya magawa. Pagod ako dahil katatapos lang ng klase ko ngayong Friday. I can even cast my care to them because it's hurt so bad.

"Nothing ka diyan! I know you! I think there is something wrong, nag away kayo?"

What?

"Nag away?"

"Simula ng hinatid ka niya dito ganyan na ang peg mo! Ano bang nangyare? Nakaraan pa kita tinatanong kung anong nangyare puro ka lang 'Nothing'." natawa ako dahil gingaya niya ang boses ko. She rolled her eyes. Pinsan ko siya, maldita din.

Even Bettina and Dominga asked if there's something wrong. Hindi lang talaga ako pinatulog ng konsensya ko. Paano nalang kong naghintay pala sakanya si Celine tapos malalaman ako yong kasama. I'm so stupid, I didn't ask him.

After that night, he texted me. He ask if what was wrong and of course I said nothing. He replied that really, but I didn't reply to his last text.

"Hindi lang ako pinatahimik ng konsensya ko." I whispered while pinching my fingers.

"And why? Mind to explain and to tell the story."

I know na wala akong ligtas kay Mia. I have no choice but to tell the truth to her. She make face while I'm sharing my story.

"Are you sure that Celine is his girlfriend?" she asked doubtfully.

Even if I'm not sure I nod my head. Sakit lang isipin, ang tagal kong hinintay na magkaisip at tumungtong sa tamang edad para matupad niya ang pinangako niya. Kung kailan malapit ko nang maabot ang tangkad na gusto niya.

"I doubt it. If he has a girlfriend, then bakit siya sumama sayo at hinatid ka pa niya sa Pampanga kung may naghihintay pala sakanya aber?"
Para siyang abogado kung mang usisa. May halong kumpas ng kilay at mga kamay niya habang nagtatanong. She has a point. Gumaan ang pakiramdam ko sa sinabi niya.

"Sinabay niya lang ako! Hindi ako nagpahatid, alam mo yan." I answer her question and it sounds defensive. But that's the truth and she knows that.

"And why would he do that? Kung hindi mo lang sinabing may girlfriend siya, iisipin kong nililigawan ka niya."

"I really don't know."

His acting really weird. His flow is a bit different and unpredictable.

"Don't worry, hindi ka naman susugurin ng girlfriend niya siguro." she assured me."I know why are you acting like that for past few days because you're hurt. Sabi ko naman sayo huwag kang aasa kay Caleb, ganyan ang mga lalaki. Akala mo nangliligaw hindi naman pala kundi ganyan lang talaga sila kumilos sa lahat ng babae!"

"So, si Thunder din pala ay ganon?" lakas makapag salita na huwag umasa pero ganon din naman siya kay Thunder. We're really cousin.

I fell asleep because of thinking Caleb's girlfriend. I hope it fades away. Hindi na rin ako nakapag gabihan dahil nakatulog na ako.