Desire | jjk. *ON HOLD*

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I tap my pencil against my notebook and I look at my notes. I don't like what I wrote, but I can't concentrate. The geography teacher has written a few questions on the board that we can answer using our notes, and even though I've been taking notes since the first day, I just can't concentrate today.

All I can hear is Hyerin's whispers, which to my surprise, she doesn't stop talking to Amy. The anger in my interior grows second by second, but I'm not able to distinguish what they're talking about. I suppose that they're talking about something important, since they haven't stopped talking for a second.

I'm upset that she's behaving like this, like a little girl. We haven't talked since the party, she has completely ignored me just because I didn't want to go back with her, and because, for the first time in my life, I had gotten drunk. And it bothered me. It bothered me because I was supposed to apologize for something that she always did.

However, she would've never let me leave by myself no matter how drunk I was. I let her leave without company, late at night, and I didn't even think twice. I was very drunk that I didn't even get the chance to worry about her.

"Hyerin, Amy, do you have anything to share with the class?" The teacher asks, clearly upset. "Maybe you could say something that will interest all of us."

I turn my head and look at Hyerin. She's leaning on the chair, playing with her hair. The instant that she sees the teacher, she rolls her eyes. Amy simply looks at the woman with a challenging stare, like always. Her celestial eyes are scary, and at the same time they're very pretty. In fact, everyone thinks Amy is the most beautiful girl in the whole school. With her long brown hair and light brown colored eyes. Everyone was jealous of her... including myself.

"I'm sorry, Hyerin was just trying to explain something that I wasn't understanding." She explains with naturality.

Her lie is so good, that I feel like if I would've believed it myself.

The teacher looks at her and lifts an eyebrow.

"Well then you can get closer to my desk and I'll answer your questions."

"Believe me, if you were explaining things clearly, I wouldn't have to ask my classmates." Amy smiles at her and puts on an angel face.

The geography teacher gets shocked by the response of her student, but once the bell rings, everyone gets up from their seats and leave the woman with her words in her mouth. We all pass by her desk, leaving our papers over her table.

When I leave the classroom, I see Hyerin walking alone in the hall. I run towards her as I try to follow her rhythm. We have to talk, because I'm going crazy.

"What do you want?" She asks without looking at me.

"I want to apologize." I say with sincerity.

She rolls her eyes, but she doesn't stop.

"Well your opportunity already passed."

"Hyerin, you're my best friend, please." We both stop in the middle of the hall, and we look at each other firmly. "I was drunk, you can't blame me."

"You didn't say that because you were drunk, but because you really believed it." She says in a bold tone. "You're supposed to be my best friend, why didn't you tell me before?"

"Hyerin, I'm not like that, you know that." I sigh. "I was having so much fun with seokjun that-"

"Seokjin." She corrects me.

"Whatever." I say, shaking my head. "I wanted to feel normal, you know? I wanted to get drunk and be with a handsome guy and-"

"Areum, that's not you." Hyerin interrupts me. "You're the one that's supposed to stay sober and... that's what makes you who you are."