Desire | jjk. *ON HOLD*

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The day was grey and rainy. I've hated the weather lately; however, it went with my mood. Always changing, unpredictable and like a roller coaster. But even though I wanted to hate this feeling in a certain form, I liked it. It made me feel alive, for some strange reason...

It was Tuesday afternoon and my father let me take the afternoon off. Since Friday, I've debated with myself on wether I should talk to Jungkook or not. He hasn't written, called or given any signs of life. That bothered me, a lot to be honest, but I also understood that I made a scene at the club. Something that could've affected his life, or that could have even got him fired.

Hyerin and I talked a lot about it. She even told me that I should go talk to him, since Jimin told her that he hasn't been doing anything but punching the punching bag to take out his anger and frustration. And I considered it, I thought about it. Maybe, just for today, it was my turn to take the first step and put my pride to the side.

But that afternoon when Amy came up to me to ask me how Jungkook was doing, I was filled with anger. I didn't tell her anything. I smiled at her and asked how Yoongi was doing. She smiled at me falsely and left. It was a silent conversation, full of detonating looks and muted threats.

But that encounter was what made me decide to go see him. To talk to him. That would take away all my doubts.

"I shouldn't go talk to him." I tell Hyerin while I'm on the bus. "I'm stupid."

"You're not stupid, Areum, you're doing the right thing." She says from the other side of the phone. "You'll see that you won't regret it."

"I hope I don't." I add next to a sigh. "I'm getting close, I'll talk to you later."

"Goodbye, good luck." She tries to cheer me up. "And don't forget to tell me the details when you get back."

She hangs up before I can respond. I smile. My best friend will never change.

-

I get off the bus and I look at the sky. It's not raining anymore; there's only grey clouds in the sky, but it seems like it'll get better and the sun will come out soon.

I walk into the gym and the guy from the reception greets me. I smile at him and I walk up the stairs without asking. I know where it is, that's why there's no need. Once I reach the place, I hear the sound of the punching bag, you don't have to be a genius to know how mad he is.

Jungkook hits the punching bag with force and anger. He doesn't have a shirt on, exposing his tattoos and his amazing body; breathless, I almost forget all of our problems.

"Are you just going to stand there?" Jungkook suddenly says.

I flinch a bit. I didn't think he saw me.

"I came to talk." I respond in a soft tone.

He laughs with irony.

"I see that you've thought about it."

"What?"

"That you had time to think about how you caused a scene for no reason." He says, his chest rises and falls because of the tiredness. "I thought you came for that."

I sigh. His attitude doesn't make this any easier, but I really haven't been easy on him.

"I'm sorry, okay?" I confess, biting my lip. "I shouldn't have yelled like that in your workplace, and I shouldn't have brought up something that happened a long time ago. I don't have a right to be mad at you for it, I'm sorry."

He stares at me for a few seconds; he seems to be analyzing my words. He takes off his gloves and the tape off his hands, and he takes a towel to wipe the sweat off his body in complete silence.

"Did you hear me?" I ask a bit uncomfortable.

He nods.

"I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have done that, Jungkook. I shouldn't have gotten in between you and your work and yelling at you was just-"

"I love you."

His words interrupt mine, but either way I can't say anything. I just stare at him with my mouth open. He's being sincere, I know it. He looks at me and kisses the tip of my nose.

"Maybe it's too soon, but it's true." He mumbles embarrassed. "I love you so much, and I can't explain it."

He presses his lips against mine in a soft kiss, and I don't move. When we separate, I still don't know what to say.

"I don't expect you to understand, I just needed to say it, I wanted you to hear it because-"

"I love you too." I let out. He looks at me and his eyes open up with happiness and surprise. He kisses me again. "I love you like crazy, Jungkook."

"I need you, I need you so much..." He mumbles against my lips. "I don't know what I'd do without you."

I don't say anything, but I also don't know what I'd do without Jungkook in my life. He came into my life like a hurricane, a tornado of emotions that swept up everything I thought I knew about my life.

"I'm sorry about what happened, I'll be more sincere with you, I promise." He continues.

"Stop talking." I say kissing him again.

Someone hits the door and he separates himself from me instantly. His eyes are full of desire and worry.

"They can't see you here." He says as he hurries me to a bathroom in the gym.

I'm not able to say anything. When I try to say something Jungkook quickly covers my mouth and puts me inside a cubicle. Then, he closes the door in front of me, leaving me locked in a bathroom.