Today was a big day for Alex as it was his graduation today. I had survived another year of school even with what had happened. Something big was going to happen today and I was ready to face it head on. I had just finished getting dress when Alex and Mel came bursting into my room with Mel waving around a camera about. Alex was dressed in gown and cap and had jeans and a shirt on underneath ready for tonight's graduation celebration. "Today's the day." Mel stated, "Ellie why aren't you wearing what I had picked out for you?"
"Because..."
"Put it on and meet us in the car, we're leaving in five." Alex laughed and shrugged his shoulders as he followed Mel out. I walked over to my wardrobe and pulled out the outfit Mel wanted me to wear then placed it onto my bed. It was a long, white dress that my mum had worn under her gown to her own graduation ceremony. I changed out of my jeans and hoodie and put the dress on and changed my black sleeves to my white ones. After I finished getting ready, I headed down to the car.
We arrived at the school and I saw Jamie stood by the entrance with two special guests. I ran over trying not to trip over the long dress. "Max? Kerion? What are you guys doing here?"
"We heard about what was going to happen today so we came to support our school and I guess we should be nice and support Alex to." Max replied.
"It's good to see you up and about El, sorry I wasn't able to make it to your welcome home dinner. I hope you're doing better." Kerion said as he gave me a hug and then Max soon pushed him off and hugged me instead.
"Yeah I'm doing a lot better." Max was still hugging me.
"Okay let the girl breath." Jamie stated and finally Max let go and we all laughed. I looked at Jamie and smiled at him and he smiled back. We had spoken more about us and decided that we want to take things slow. We're going on a double date next week with Max and Kerion to the summer fair in the town Max lives in. I'm really looking forward to it. "Should we head in then," Mel said as she stumbled over, I can't believe she's drunk on the day that Alex is graduating but I'm not going to let her ruin this day. I stood still for about trying not to panic. Jamie took a hold of my hand, said "it will be fine just be yourself" and I followed him in.
About an hour later, all of the students had collected their certificates and of course we all clapped and cheered especially when Alex went to collect his as we all screamed at the top of our lungs. The headteacher came to the front of the stage, "congratulations to everyone who managed to graduate this year and those who didn't I am still proud of you. I have watched the majority of you grow up and develop into these young adults who are about to go off and begin a new life. Now as you all know something tragic happened recently to a student at our school and this girl was able to pull through and survive and for that I think she is extremely strong but also extremely brave. I have asked this girl to speak to you about her experience and not hopefully get through to some of you and make you realise that your actions have consequences but to hopefully inspire people out there who are going through something similar to come forward and get the help that the deserve and need. So please give a warm welcome to Ellie Mills." Everyone started clapping and I slowly stood up and made my why to the stage trying not to have a panic attack. I stood there and gave myself a few second to breathe before I began.
"My name is Ellie Louise Mills and I have been asked to talk to you about what happened to me recently. For years I have felt like I was nothing. That I worthless. That I was just there for people to use for their own purposes like I was there for their entertainment. It wasn't just the people at school who made me feel like this but the people at home who are supposed to be my family and by the people I would pass in the streets but most of all it was me. I listened to all of the verbal abuse that would be shoved down my throat. People would tell me that I'm disgusting and ugly and stupid and that I'm unwanted. That I was a freak. I listened to them and believed every word of it. I would wake up every morning and dread looking in the mirror and seeing how gross I was and I would tell myself that I am gross and disgusting and stupid and a loser. This was not the right thing to be doing. I should have been ignoring what people said about me and instead been looking into my mirror and telling myself that I'm not ugly or some freak that should be locked up in a mental hospital. Telling myself that I am not Eggy Ellie. I have never understood why people see me like this and treat me in that way, maybe they didn't like my hair or like the way I dress or like the things I liked. I would ask myself so many questions and try to figure out what was wrong with me but the answer was nothing. You shouldn't be hated because of the things you like or how you look. People shouldn't be defined by how they are and put into categories like emo, prep, jock or nerd. For the most of my life I had no one to depend on, no one to tell me I'm not the bad things people tell me and say that in fact I am beautiful and I had no one to be my friend. When you are like this and being treated like this it makes you feel isolated, like you have being suffocated and that you have a ton of bricks on your back. No one should ever feel like this. Feel like they are hated. Feel like they should hurt themselves. Feel like you should take your own life. I felt like this. I was a victim of self-harm because I wanted to be able to be in control of my own pain and it helped my cope. This isn't the same for why everyone who self-harms: some would do it to feel something and some would do it as a way of wiping the slate clean. Things got worse for me and I couldn't cope anymore. I broke. I felt worse and more alone than ever. I tried to end my story before it had really started. Fortunately, I had someone in my corner and I didn't even realise it. He defended me when no one else would. He made me feel like I wasn't dirt for people to stamp all over. He helped me and saved me. You wouldn't like it if you were neglected by society. We all work so hard to fit in and get people to like us but why? We should be focusing on being happy and enjoying life instead of worrying about if our skin is clear or if we are following the latest trends or if we're popular at school. Be you. Be your true self. If you want to follow all of the latest fashion trends then do it but don't let it control you and make you depressed. If you are ever feeling like you want to cause yourself pain or feel like you want to end your life then stop and take a moment to think am I really alone? Look for the positive things in your life and if you struggle finding any then make some. You are never alone even if you think you are. You always have someone backing you up. Everyone is different and let's celebrate that. We shouldn't be scared to stand out in a crowd. Everyone is unique and special. Don't let anyone tell you different. It doesn't matter if you're ginger or overweight or foreign. Everyone has rough times and everyone has things they're insecure about. You are not alone. You could be insecure about your hair colour and find someone who is the same and you could be like twins and become best friends over it. You always have someone to talk to. There are nice people in the world who will like you for who you are. Be yourself and don't let anyone steal your shine. Don't suffer alone. You will get through it and come out so much stronger. It's a battle that you can win. I wear these sleeves to hide my pain and my scars but no more. My name is Ellie Mills not Eggy Ellie. I accept I'm hated. I accept my scars. I accept who I am because this is who I am."
I pulled off my sleeves revealing years of scars that have held me back for too long but I am no longer embarrassed of them as they're a part of me. All of the negativity and bullying just doesn't affect me anymore. I don't care what people think of me anymore because why should I. Everyone stood up and started to clap. The headteacher turned to me, "I'm proud of you Ellie."
"Thank you." I walked off stage and into the car park. Jamie came running up to me and we hugged tightly. "That was brilliant El" Max said,
"I am so proud of you" Mel added.
"I personally think it was a load of rubbish and everyone agrees with me." Melissa, Nicole and the other morons walked over followed by Alex, Matt and their friends.
"I don't care what you say. I'm proud of myself for doing that and I think I did the best I could." I shouted.
"That was an amazing speech sis," Alex stated.
"Why are you being so nice to the weirdo bro?" Matt asked confused.
"Because bro that weirdo is my sister and I thought her speech was amazing."
"That makes you a weirdo to."
"Good. I'm fine with that. Nothing wrong with being weird."
"A chipmunk could have done a better speech."
"Just get lost Melissa" It was Jamie this time. "Just leave her alone."
"I still don't get why you chose her over us," Nicole moaned.
"Because Ellie is my friend."
"I heard she was your girlfriend now which I think is completely gross."
"She is and I am proud that she chose me because it makes me the luckiest man in the universe." Cole went to punch Jamie but Alex quickly got in the way and knocked Cole to the floor. "Back off d.." Alex was interrupted by Matt swinging at him. Alex started to pummel Matt. It wasn't long before the girls had ran off and Matt was bloody on the floor. Cole picked him up and dragged him to the car and they all drove off. "Thank you everyone for that," I said.
"Always."
"Also, thanks Alex for that," Jamie added.
"No problem I've got to look after you to."
It was graduation day so of course we had to celebrate and have a party. We all went back to my house so I can get changed as everyone else was already wearing their party clothes then went to Max's club to party the night way. Honestly, I had one of the best nights of my life.
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General Fiction(Completed) Ellie Mills was a blue haired girl who was shy and lived a lonely life in the small town of Mullberry. She lived with her older brother, Alex, who was a douche, and her aunt called Mel who was never around. Ellie hated her town especiall...
