Dream or Reality

Chapter Twenty-Six

I slowly opened my eyes and the bright lights blinded me and I was forced to slam my them back shut. My other senses slowly started to wake. I could hear people crying and shouting. I think I was in a hospital room. My sense of touch finally returned, and I could feel something pushing against my arm, so I carefully and slowly opened my eyes one by one and the gave them time to adjust to the light. I tried moving my head to see what was by my arm, but it killed like hell and was throbbing too much. "H... Hello?" It just came out like a small mumble instead of an actual word. I tried again but slower this time and attempted at being louder, it was like I hadn't used my voice in years. "Hello?" I finally got my head to move and as soon as I saw the black hair, I knew exactly who was led on the bed with his hair brushing against my arm. I managed to lift my arm and rest it on his head and started to move my fingertips around and play with his hair. "Jamie?" I said. He slowly started to wake up and it took him a while to fully open his eyes and understand what was going on. "Ellie oh my god you're awake." He said as he jumped up and gave me a big hug causing me to wince in pain, "oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm just so happy you're finally awake."

"How long was I out for?"

"Two weeks." Was I really out for that long? I barely remember what happened.

"How you feeling?" Jamie ask.

"My everything is killing me, it's like someone with twenty arms has a massive hammer in each hand and is pummelling me with them."

"Want some pain killers?"

"I need at least fifty." We both started laughing out heads off which was probably the wrong thing to do as it caused more pain in my chest, but it was really good to laugh and smile and was probably the first time Jamie had laughed or smiled in a while. He looked paler than he used to, and he has clearly been crying. "Where is Alex and Mel?" I asked,

"My mum is downstairs getting some herbal tea, I don't know where Mel is and Alex is at home getting some sleep, he's been here every day and night and this was the first night we've forced him to go home which is just typical it's the night you wake up." He continued, "I'll go get the doctor and my mum and then call Alex." Jamie left the room and I just stayed led there trying to awake everything and having very little success. I want to talk to Jamie about what he told me on the pier, but I don't know where to start. I really like him to, but I'm scared I will say or do something wrong and it will ruin our friendship.

A couple of hours later, Alex turned up and he looked like hell. He had massive bags under his eyes, and they were all red and puffy. "How you feeling El?"

"Like poop."

"We need to talk."

"The doctor said if I take things easy then I should make a full recovery and will be able to leave here soon but they want me to stay a little longer so they can keep an eye on for but luckily I only had to have a few bruises, a few stitches and had to have blood pumped into me which is weird."

"I know I spoke to them but what I mean is we need to talk about what happened. I mean you tried to kill yourself Ellie. I can see years of scars on your arms. We need to talk about all of this." I didn't really want to talk about any of it but then Jamie came in and also brought the topic up, "I agree with Alex we do need to talk about it. We were so scared and thought we were going to lose you."

"I'm sorry."

"You don't need to apologise. Just if you ever feel like that again then please talk to us, I know it's hard to, but we are here to support you because we care about it." Alex stated.

I hurt them which hurts me more than anything. I have my friends and my family and there is nothing more I need. They make me want to keep living. They make me stronger than I am. I choose reality. I choose them.