Unexpected

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Its the first of his last two tours. Two more nights and then he's back home. Juts the thought of makes me so happy and relieved. Him veing away for so long has put a strain on our relationship but we're back on the road again. A little detour never hurt anyine, right?

I pull on my skinny jeans and put on a black and white stripy hollister T-shirt. Its toght but I like it.  I pull my hair into a missy fishtail braid and then leave the house. I enter the taxi which has been waiting for me for the last fifteen minutes. I apologise and then tell him to teake me the arena. 

The drive takes longer than it should. I arrive at the arena just Niall and the boys should be getting off stage. Plus the twenty minutes it will take for me to walk all the way into the arena and plus the half an hour it will take to find him. I am so un-organised. Its terrible. i pay the taxi driver and then run to the backstage door. This time i'm allowed in without hassle. Maybe Niall spoke to them.

I walk into a giant human snake. Everyone is carrying stuff and i'm just weaving through them, trying not to get in anybodies way.

I see Harry's hair. Niall should be close.

"Hey!" i shout and he turns around. He smiles at me.

"Yo."

"Have you seen Niall?" I go to open a door.

"I wouldn't go in there." Harry grabs the door handle. 

"Oh come one, Really?" and then it dauns on me. "Is he.. Weed?" I ask.

"And other stuff?"

"Wait? Like drugs or...?"

"Or."

I burst through the door and die. Nialls. In bed. With two other girls. 

I fight my tears and bite my lip. Harry tries to pull me away but i stay where I'm stood. My  presence doesn't affect any of them. Smoke leaves the the tiny cylinder between Niall's fingers. 

He finally looks up and smiles at me. i shake my head and ,my eyes drop to the floor along with any emotion I can currently feel.

I look back up and prepare myself for what i am about to say becuase there is no going back at all after this.  He won't creep back in like he has done before.

"We're over Niall." I say bluntly with a blank face.

"You say that ever time but guess what? It never stays that way." Niall laughs and the one girl follows whilst the other just sits there feeling sorry.

"I mean it this time." I say.

"Prove it." Niall continues to laugh.

I rip off my bracelet, breaking it, and through it at Niall.

"You not high?" The girl nids. "When he's not high, tell him we're over and thats the proof." 

i walk out of the door.

"Yeah? Well you never my world."  Niall shouts.

I stand where i am before I continue walking. Harry doesn't try to follow me which i'm glad about. I shove past Ash with not a single tear in my eyes yet. 

The cold air hits my afce and wakes me up form this nightmare. My wrist feels bare without the bracelet but I am past caring. If I had just come a few minutes earlier then maybe none of this would have happened. If.

I ring for a cab and wait patiently. it arrives within ha;f an hour and I cannot thank God enough.

"Closest hotel." I choke out and she takes me there. 

I'm out of the cab after five minutes. I should have just walked. I book into the hotel room for one night. I sit on the edge of my bed. It's like I have nothing left in the world. I lost my sunshine and my best friend. 

..................

I curl  up on top of the duvet. Th tears still don't come even though they should. I fall asleep even though my head is spinning. My dreams are just waves crashing on top of me. Over and over again. I'm drowning. 

My phone wakes me up. I know what I need to do. What I have to do. I collect my small amount of items and then leave. The station is somewhere near here. I just need to find it. 

I wonder around aimlessly for hours, constantly asking people for diurections until I hit jackpot. Someone tells me it is right around the corner. I run it expecting it not to be that far but it is. I make it. There are fangirls all over. I barge through them.

"OMG ITS JESS CARTER!" One girls screams. 

"JESS!" Another one screams. 

The guy at the door smiles at me and lets me in. 

I follow the corridor until I find the room where Ash, Luke, Cal and Mike stand.