.: ~ Petals Dipped in Crimson ~ :. (On Hold/ Being Rewritten)

.: ~ Shock Therapy ~ :.

(This chapter is solely Kaminari's POV in case you were wondering what happened when he kinda vanished in the last bit of the chapter. -AH my picture is sideways! oh well... sorry guys I can't figure out how to fix it ) 

.: ~ Kaminari's POV ~ :.

I came to sitting in a cell and looked around, not much longer after I was up A doctor came in and gave me news, (Left for you guys to find out and me to know) then explained that I would be discharged in a bit. I had no charges or reason to stay. I was so confused and decided to go find Shinsou and say hey... It felt like it had been a long time since I had seen my best friend but I knew it had only been a few days. I arrive at his home and knock, expecting to have Aizawa answer. Only silence did though, So I check my phone which was dead. I went to charge my phone and sighed, I felt like I was forgetting something. I was humming to myself when I saw my reflection and froze. I ran back to the mirror in my own home and sparks flew everywhere in my surprise. I even shocked myself some. I wasn't sure why my hair was completely inverted but brush it off and went to call Shinsou, no answer. I assumed he was in the hospital and went to visit. The nurses gave me no trouble and sent me right up, I opened the door and Shinsou whipped a knife out and pressed it against his neck. 'Wait- Shinsou? What happened to you?' He was scrawny, fear reflecting in his eyes so I took a step forwards to comfort him "Another step and I'll do it" Shinsou growled and I paused. "Are you okay?" Is what I say but i stiffen as the words that actually leave my mouth are entirely different and don't feel like my own. "Okay, then I'll wait here while you calm down." I see the blood trickle down his neck and almost shout at him "Go" "Aw but Shinsou~" I hadn't even spoken that time "GO" I lower my head and race out the second I could make my legs move. I stopped at home and sat at the table still confused. I shock myself with my quirk to see if it helps... It does. that black spot that had been in my mind was filled in. Except one. I think back and remember racing to rescue Shinsou, but then it seems to Skip and there I was waking up in that cell. I waited for a week to try and figure it out. I never did. So I went to visit  Shinsou instead and opened the door in the hospital.

Shinsou growls as I enter, I look up at him and notice he's straining to reach that knife. I walk closer and hand it to him before backing up to the door quickly "What the hell do you want?!!?" he shouts and I flinch ever so slightly. "Will you please hear me out? You don't have to but... please?" I sounded helpless but at least it was my own voice this time. "Since when did you give me a choice?" He said sharply and I let out a small cry of emotional pain and confusion before I continued "-I'm sorry... I don't know what took over me... I was chasing after Shigaraki after beating Toga and the next I wake up in a cell. I don't know what happened between there and I have a feeling it wasn't good but I'm so.... so... Sorry." my voice shook and I hated how helpless I sounded, I begin to cry, the tears spilling unwillingly out of my eyes.  "I'm... so... sorry... I don't know what else I can do!" I wail and he seems to realize I was crying and stiffened, "Sorry or not. It doesn't change what happened." He says coldly I look up. "I know...." he said softly. Then I just walked out sadly.

I went straight home and screamed at myself and scream and scream. I was so mad at myself I had hurt Shinsou! I didn't even remember it but I could tell by the way he looked at me and the way he spoke.... I had done this to him somehow. me. I collapsed on my couch, I had vowed to protect Shinsou from everyone... and now... I have to protect him from... me...

'He hates me... I could feel it...'

'Or was it fear...?'

'I have to fix this.'

Millions of thoughts rush through my head like a angry swarm of bees might. I sit there for a while before I get up and go to my desk and write some letters before trashing them and recording them instead. I knew {and hoped} nobody else would ever see them but it helped to write them and get those feelings off my chest. 

A/n okay, yes a shorter chapter but the next chapter will be his first recording. it will be a odd method of writing for me but stay tuned, I may {Possibly} try and start it but I mean... Don't get too upset if I cant post until tomorrow please. Thanks! (Word Count: 886)