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CHAPTET TEN

Everything is going on just well.

Perfect actually.

My new family is the best I can ask for. And my Dad is becoming amazing and amazing as days go by.

I haven't heard from Tasha ever since and Brett Is the last person I want to hear from. Leave alone see.

I miss my Mum but then I remember her selfishness and her perfect soul then I change my mind. So fuck her and her perfectionist.

Ouch!, But whatever.

This new girl I have become give me chills. I am just what I have always wanted to be.

Feels good.

So good.

My 'brother' Ryan so far is my favourite sibling and the cutest by the way. Mel my half sister is just six months old and I can't get enough of her.

Just how did I ever survived living without them? ,I was so mad with my Dad for not telling me about Mel but then after a few explanations I understood and here we are.

Getting along in the best way possible.

Vicky who turns out to be Ryan's and Mel's Mom and apparently my Dad's wife is just something else. I don't call her mother but I do respect her.

I hate to say this but nobody can replace my Mum.

I still love her you know,

But my mind is all made up now.

There is no way I am going back.

Not after all that happened.

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"You still going back to Garden heights?" Ryan asked me during dinner.

"I haven't decided on it yet." I answered him back staring at my Dad.

We had an argument earlier that day when I told him I wanted to drop school for a while as I get everything together again. I'm still not sure if I have the courage to face Brett and everything in my past. I wanted time to get over things first before resuming classes.

"You can change schools if you want Jewel" Vicky added.

I don't want to discuss about this right now but it seems they won't stop. Ryan is excited I'll transfer to their school but that is never going to happen. Not even in his wildest dreams.

"I'll need sometime to think about that." I said plainly still looking at my Dad.

"You better think about it fast. " my Dad said giving me a hard look.

He is scared I'll drop out of school. Honestly I'd really love to because I am not even sure what I want to be anymore.

(Knock at the door)

"That is Max. Geez what does he want now!" Ryan said as he stood up to get the door.

He murmurs with the person on the door before he came saying I have a visitor.

"Who, me?," I asked in shock.

I wonder who it could be. I just moved in to this new town ,I barely know anyone.

And I don't want to.

I stood from where I sat as everyone stared. I walked nervously to the door and what came next is unexpected.

"Tasha!' I jumped and threw myself in her arms. Being in those arms made me breakdown. I really had missed her.

She pulled back and kissed my lips softly with passion. I felt sparks all over my body and I can't deny I liked every bit it. Our bodies were so close and I could feel the heat in between.

I could die in pleasure if we stayed in that state for another second. What I felt was magical but there is no way I am letting such feelings fool me. I would be a fool to get myself into the same hole again.

I do not want attachments anymore.

I pushed her back roughly that she almost fall.

" What the hell do you think you doing?, back off " I smirked at her.

"Jewel, I wanted to check up on you. I miss you" she said with tears in her eyes. I can see she is hurting.

I miss you too and I am hurting as much as you do. I want to cry right now but I am holding my tears back.

"How did you know where I am?,you should leave." I said plainly with no facials expressing my emotions whatsoever.

"Jewel I am tired of hiding this anymore. You know I love you right?" She asked ignoring my question.

My blood jumped a little hearing those words.

"Are you out of your mind?, You must be a fool to think I am gay. Just get the fucking hell out of here before I lose my cool." I paused and looked at her then finished coldly."My god you are disgusting! "

Without saying a word she walked away sadly and drove off.

I watched her go as I gladly let my tears flow down my cheeks.

I banged the door angrily then rushed to my bedroom and buried my head in the pillow and cried myself uncontrollably.

What have I turned into?.

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TASHA'S POV

I thought she understood me. I thought she knew me . What I truly love and what my heart despise.She had the right to be mad but who does she think she is to judge me?

Or maybe I was wrong?

I shouldn't have done what I did.

I shouldn't have kissed her.

But my mind was drowned by her beauty that I had missed so bad.

Those lips!

I just couldn't help myself.

I wanted to have a taste of them and now that I did I am still yearning for more.

Right through that moment I felt what I never felt. What I have always wanted to feel. The kiss I had longed for all my life. Exactly what my heart wanted and still wants.

But it hurts me so bad that I might never get the chance again. Why would she want me to have a taste of the top of the ice cream if she wouldn't let me finish up the corn?

I feel like I want to give up on her but something holds me back. Why do I feel that Jewel feels exactly the same way I do .

It hit me that she never pulled back out of that kiss .

She enjoyed every bit of it. I could feel it.

Those words she uttered still hurts me to the core. If they came from someone else I would totally understand.

Anyone but her.

Those people who we expected to hold us down for life are the people who actually hurt and tear us the most. Sometimes that's how it is designed to be and we have to pass through it whether we like it or not.

But still there is hope. Hope makes us feel that someday things might get better even though it doesn't guarantee it hundred percent.

So I'll be holding on to it.

Holding on to Jewel's love.

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