Not Your Sasaeng || TAENNIE FF

📎Starting to Get It

J E N N I E

"Do you like him?" I quickly turned to him with my brows furrowed. "Baekhyun hyung?" Well, yes.. I do but as an idol. I mean, look at him. He's an angel.

"Why do you wanna know?" He shrugged his shoulders and continued helping me get the leaves off my hair. I had to do a rolling on a forest scene for the drama. I've got twigs and dried leaves on my hair as props.

"I'm your friend right? Of course I HAVE and WANT to know." I rolled my eyes at him and wiped the make up off my face. "So..Do you like him?"

"How many times do I have to tell you that I only love my first love? He's my idol, of course I like him but it stays like that. I thought I made it clear to you already?"

"Just making sure that you're loyal." Of course I'm loyal. I've been waiting for that bastard for years and yet he never came.

But the hope in my heart is still there..

"I'm still waiting. That's how much I love him. Even if it took me years without a single progress, I still love him. Even if I never saw what he looks like, I still love him."

I saw him stop removing the leaves in my hair. I turned to him and he was looking so down. "Smiley.. Is something wrong? Is it still about me not telling you about Baekhyun?"

"Ani." He smiled bitterly and drank the water bottle on the table. "I'm fine. Don't worry about me."

"You look a bit troubled. Taehyung what's wrong? You can always tell me your concerns. I have time for you, don't be shy." I patted his back and smiled. "What is it?"

"It's just about someone I.. Love." I couldn't stop myself and snorted. "Yah.. I'm being serious."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. You looked like a highschool kid just now, asking an advice on how to impress the girl he likes. But go on." I didn't expect him to use the 'L' word this fast. Who's the girl? I should warn her about his protective side.

"I want to make a move on her but she makes it too obvious that she doesn't like me and I don't have a single chance on her. But I don't want to give up on her Jen. She loves someone else and.. I can't just tell her to forget about him because he was too special to be forgotten in the first place."

Damn.. I felt this guy's sadness. I don't want to be delusional about it but it gave me the chills. It can't be me, right?

"What should I do? It honestly gets hard for me to keep doing this but I don't want to give up. It hurts me hearing her say she's still inlove with him. I never showed her that I was affected but deep inside it felt like a thousand knives stabbing me whenever she says those words.. Thinking.. Will she ever love me like how she loves him?" I saw tears forming in the corner of his eyes.

"Who?" It's the only word that came out from my mouth after everything he said. "Who is she Tae?"

He pressed his lips into a thin line and shook his head. "You know what? Forget it. I can't tell you yet. I'm scared it will make things difficult for me and her."

"Taehyung who is she?" I seriously asked this second time. I felt a knot in my chest when his tears started to fall. "Please tell me. You're crying.."

He immediately wiped his tears and looked away. "I-it's fine. I shouldn't have asked you about her. I'll figure it myself, Jen. Don't think about it anymore."

"Do you love her that much?" He stopped and faced me. "That girl.. Do I know her?" He bit his lip and looked down. "Tae.. Answer me. I want to know."

"You don't. I'll tell you next time when I'm ready." He stood up and fixed his clothes. "I'll just get some fresh air outside."

"Is she.." He stopped walking. It's not my intention to offend him or invade his personal life but I wanted to know the truth. I'm afraid I can't sleep comfortably tonight if I don't get the answer I want.

I stood up and walked towards him. He backed away a little while looking into my eyes.

I need to know.

"Is the girl you love.. Is it me?"