Not Your Sasaeng || TAENNIE FF

📎Rain

J E N N I E

I stared at the window as the rain kept pouring harder. It's almost six and I just finished eating the bulgogi I cooked. "Why isn't Beomie home yet?" I opened the door and I was startled to see Taehyung lying on the ground. "What the.. Why are you still here?!"

I carried him inside my room and let him lie on the bed. Why did he stay there for too long? I told him to go..

"Tsk. Look at what happened to you." I felt his forehead and dang! He's boiling hot! "I'm seriously throwing you off a building when you wake up!"

His all soaked clothes caught my attention. It's not like I have to.. Take them off right? I mean.. His condition won't get worse if I leave him like that..right?

"Who am I kidding?" I quickly went to Beomie's room and looked for something Taehyung could borrow. I took a gray shirt and went back to my room. "Okay. Let's get this over with. Don't worry. I'm not some pervert who's crazily interested in your appeal-less body."

I grabbed the end of his shirt and pulled it up. What the.. Was he working out these days?  ...   Ani! Ani! Don't be tempted! Don't you dare give in to temptation! Just..just take the fucking shirt off Kim Jennie!

I quickly took it off and made him wear my brother's shirt. "Geez.. I'm sweating in this cold weather." I looked away and pulled the shirt down to cover his body. "Done."

I stood up to get the basin from the kitchen and poured cold water in it. I took a handkerchief from my drawer and sat on the bed. "You shouldn't have waited for me outside. Pabo."

I wiped his face with the soaked hanky. I don't do this normally but I saw this in My Love From the Star so this better work. I closed my eyes before pulling his shirt up and wiped his torso. Songyi did this so I'm also doing it.

I'm not interested in his body! Not ever! Why would I be? Tss..

When I was finished with it, I pulled his shirt down without even peeking. It's how well controlled Kim Jennie is everyone. "I still hate you. If you thought I already forgot about what you did earlier, you're wrong. I'm only doing this because we're friends and I owe you a lot."

I sighed and was about to leave to buy medicine when he held my wrist and stopped me from leaving. "Jennie." His voice sounded really weak. "Stay."

"I still have to buy you medicine. If I won't, you will not recover fast. You don't want to worry your hyungs, do you? You have to get better so you will have the strength to work."

"Ani. Just stay. You're all I need to get better." Cheesy.. But fine. Whatever this patient says.

I sat down on the edge of the bed and looked at him smile at me. "That was sooo cheesy Kim Taehyung. But why did you have to wait for me outside? You know it was raining so hard! Why did you still have to stay? You don't know if I would open that door and let you in. What if I didn't?"

"But you still did. If I left then I would lose this only chance to talk to you again. I know you're just gonna keep ignoring me if I really left." Good point tho. I'd do that..actually. I guess he's not so dumb afterall. "But here I am talking to you."

"You sacrificed your health just to make me talk to you. Don't do this again if you don't want to get your ass whooped by yours truly." He pouted and nodded.

"I'm sorry for acting that way. I'm really sorry Jen. I don't want to see you mad at me. I'll go crazy if you still hated me. What you said pained me a lot. It's as if you regret meeting me again. As if you never wanted to see me." His tears started falling from his eyes. He suddenly held my hand softly and caressed it with his thumb. "I'm sorry if I made you think that I was siding with her. I just don't want people to hate you. I didn't want you to have people throwing bad things at you. She seemed honest and I thought, at least one of those people realized their mistake."

He really sounded like an innocent kid just now. "Tae.." I held his hand before saying, "I can't please everyone. There will always be haters who will judge me and that's normal. Everyone experiences that. And.. Not all tears are honest, not everyone is honest about their feelings. It's true, some do cry when what they're feeling is sincere and they get pretty emotional. But some..are using their tears just to fool others. It's just like smiling though you're hurting inside. Their purposes are the opposite but it's still called lying. I hope you'll know the difference because if you're naive about the world, it's just gonna hurt you even more. Leave those haters be and focus on the good side. And don't worry about me. I'm old enough to handle my shits."

"I thought I was doing well being your Smiley. It seems like you're the one who has plenty of words of wisdom to share now."

"I learn too, you know? But thanks for being concerned about me. You should've told me the real reason earlier."

"I couldn't think straight earlier because I felt like I was starting to lose you. I don't want that to happen. I wanted to protect you but turns out, I was only protecting you physically. I should protect your emotions too."

"Fine. Do as you wish Mr. Kim. But I've become independent so I won't need your help that often." He smiled and brought his hand to my face, caressing it. "Your gestures are scaring me Taehyung."

"Hmm? Waeyo?"

"Well.. It's.. Forget it."

It's just that, you're giving me the reason to think that I'm really the girl you love. And it scares me.