Not Your Sasaeng || TAENNIE FF

📎Jennie's Decision

J E N N I E

"Jennie?" Jisoo unnie asked the moment I entered the café. "Wahh.. You took a day off just for me?"

"Ani. The shooting's cancelled because our director and crew weren't feeling really well. Why would I leave work just to see you?" I teased. I love the look on her face when she's annoyed.

"Wah.. Get out. I don't want to see you." She crossed her arms and pouted. I ran to her back and hugged her. "That's not enough. You hurt my feelings."

"Sorry unnie.. I'll buy you chikin." He quickly turned to me and laughed. "I know your number one weakness. Don't test me." I pulled away and made myself a coffee. I'll pay later.

"So why do you want to visit me? Is being an actress a tough job? Are they being harsh on you?" I shook my head and sipped from my cup. "Is your landlady asking for your rent again and you're broke?"

"Ani.. It's just.. Unnie? What would you do if you find out that your bestfriend likes you for years? And he was hiding for too long that it already hurt him?"

"Does Taehyung like you?" Well, I tried.

"Actually, not just like unnie. I guess after all those years.. His feeling for me grew that I turned into love." She gasped and quickly covered her mouth. "Crazy, right?"

"How did you know? Did he confess to you? When?" I shook my head and sighed. "What? You read his diary or something?"

"Ani. He thought I was already asleep and started saying really sad words. I mean, I had the feeling that I was the girl he was talking about but I didn't want to believe such thing. It was actually obvious but I'm scared to accept it."

"Do you really feel nothing for this guy? Taehyung's perfect, Jen. No kidding. You treated him as your friend the whole time but from what I've observed, he treated you like his girl. It was indeed obvious. What did he say?"

"That he's already hurting. That he only keeps it to himself. He's scared to tell me because he thinks that if he would, he'll lose me. But that's not true. I don't want to lose him either."

"Then date him. Is it that hard?" I looked down and shook my iced coffee. "Do you want to hurt his feelings?"

"Never. But I'm afraid I'm already doing it. I've hurt him..I am hurting him. He said he's preparing himself to be rejected and.. He said he'll try to endure the pain it will bring."

"Taehyung's a cheerful and jolly kid, Jen. But based from the things you just said, he feels the opposite inside. Are you sure you don't feel anything for him? Nothing?"

"There were times that my heart would flutter because of his gestures. But I ignored them thinking, I shouldn't fall for him. Someone's waiting for me."

"How are are you sure that it's not you who's waiting for that guy? Are you sure he still likes you? Are you sure he's coming back? It's been years Jen. Please move on. If you won't, you'll end up hurting. I keep telling you that."

"But it's been my goal since I read his letters. I loved him for years, even though I had no idea of how he looks like or where he is now."

"You loyal idiot. It doesn't matter how many years you've waited for that man. If your heart wants to beat for someone else now, don't be a bitch and just let it do its work."

"But there's one thing that troubled me the most. He said there's only two options. I will suffer, or he will. He said I couldn't love him back-"

"But you can, Jen. It's not impossible for someone to fall for someome as long as you open your heart for him. Give him a chance. Those two options he was talking about, that's all nonesense if you just try."

"What if I can't? We'll end up hurting ourselves too. He's gonna feel the heartache and I..being his close friend, don't want to see that happen because of me."

"You're really dumb, aren't you? Those little things you feel because of him? It's proof that you can fall for him too. You haven't tried yet, Jen."

"How about my first love?"

"Scratch him out of the story. Leave him be! You've waited for him for too long. It's time to stop and move on. You have to make a choice. It's either accept Taehyung in your life or wait for someone who probably doesn't remember you anymore. You have to decide while he's still knocking on your door. There will be that time of regret, when you couldn't hear him knocking anymore."

The chimes above the door sounded, grabbing my attention. There, Taehyung stood and waved at me.

"What's it gonna be Kim Jennie? Are you sure you would ignore that guy's feelings and keep chasing that good for nothing, first love of yours who you don't even know?"

I stopped and thought about it for a while. I don't want to be reckless with my actions.

But I did say I'll try..

I placed my coffee on the table and smiled at Taehyung. "You're right, unnie. I'll open my heart to someone who's actually here. I think he's been knocking for too long now. I guess it's time to open the door."

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Author's Note:

Last chapter for today!!💚💖 Our Jennie finally made her decision😄🎉 I've waited for this chapter same as you guys and I finally wrote it!😁💕 Hope you enjoyed!!😊

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