Not Your Sasaeng || TAENNIE FF

📎Drink to Think

J E N N I E

"Is the girl you love.. Is it me?"

I waited for him to answer. But even if I'll know, I still wouldn't know what to do. I don't want to push him away or stay away from him. I just want to know the truth.

"Jen-" - "Miss Kim?" The both of us turned to her. She's one of the drama producers. "Can I talk to you for a bit?" I turned to Taehyung and he just looked away.

Maybe next time.

"Okay." I left my tent and followed her. "Is there something I did, Ms. Park? Was my acting too bad?"

"No, no dear.. You were amazing. You did it perfectly, the directors loved it. They sent their compliments to you."

"Ahh.. kansahamnida!" I bowed and smiled. "I'll work harder!" She chuckled and nodded. "So.. Why do you want to talk to me?"

"I was just thinking.. Are you interested in modeling, perhaps? Different clothing lines in Korea are interested in making your their new model and sponsor your outfits for the drama."

"Modeling?" Does that mean, I'll be posing for magazines and I could see my face in malls? Wahh.. That's a big thing! "Um.. I'll think about it, Ms. Park. Thank you."

"Alright. Here's my card. If you made your decision, please call me." I received her card and bowed. "You're gonna be successful. I know it Jennie."

"Thank you Ms. Park." She walked away and I looked at the card she gave me. "I hope so too.."

I hurried back to the tent but Taehyung isn't there anymore. He really wants to run from my question huh? That kid..

I changed into my comfortable clothes and went back to the van with Lisa. "Unnie, Taehyung oppa left already. He said his hyung was looking for him."

"I could see that.." He couldn't even say goodbye personally. Is that question really hard for him?

We stopped by at the company and Hitman Bang congratulated me. The staffs we passed by also complimented me. I'm happy they already treat me like a family..

I stayed at the lounge for some time and took a nap. It's almost eight at night and our driver said he could still take me home until nine.

I listened to some songs while trying to sleep. What Taehyung said earlier couldn't leave my mind. I'm curious as hell. Why did he have to cry about it though?

But what if.. What if it's really me?

I don't want to hurt my best friend. He did joke about liking me before but I didn't mind it. But seeing him cry earlier made me think. The feelings he have for her is damn serious. I just wish it's not me. I'm afraid I can't love him back.

What Beomgyu said to me flashed again. I don't want to lose Taehyung. If he really loves me and I was that bitch who made him cry and hurt him like that.. I don't know what to do to myself.

"Why can't I just forget about my first love?!" I sat down and brushed my hair back in disappointment. "What if it's really me? What should I say? How would I reject him without hurting his feelings? Is that even possible?" I covered my face with my hands and sighed.

I need a drink.

I left the lounge and asked the driver to take me to a restaurant where I normally come to think. I wore my mask and cap before leaving. I don't want people to make an issue about me when I'm just starting. "Two bottles of soju please." I said and paid for it.

I chose the table near the see through window and drank the first bottle. The moment I returned the bottle on table, the rain suddenly poured giving me the perfect atmosphere to think.

I was about to drink again when a guy sat in front of me. "That's enough." His deep voice commanded. I turned to him and put the bottle on the table. "I told you not to drink anymore. Why are you here?"

"I just want to think. Drinking helps me think about the shits happening in my life so don't take this away from me. I need it right now."

He sighed and nodded slowly. "Fine. Just don't get drunk." I looked outside and continued drinking. "What are you thinking about?"

"About how the heck am I going to deal with this recent shit that's going on inside my head. I couldn't even sleep because of it."

"Exactly what are you thinking about, Kim Jennie?" I put the bottle on the table a little too forcefully, producing a loud tug and seriously looked at him.

"That unfamiliar feeling you gave me when you talked about the girl you love. It makes me confused as hell Kim Taehyung. What the heck are you doing to me?"

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Author's Note:

Boring and confusing, I'm sorry😅 But I have something for everyone in the next chapter😉