Jin. Slumped in deep dejection, his unpleasant experiences scarred him for life. He thought he wasn't capable of falling in love, but he was wrong. He fell in love with Taehyung. A man twice his age, married and husband of the man he wanted to seek...
"It's hard to wake up from a nightmare If you aren't even asleep"
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"I thought he's just a friend. A best friend. But something in him made me angrier. His darkest secret and deepest pains cannot be compared to mine. He turned out to be the key to everything. I realized a lot of things because of him. My nightmares cannot be compared to him."
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YOONGI
Nightmares.
Who wants it? No one. If we can only dream the best dreams every single night, then all of us would be waking up happy every morning. But that's impossible.
I have nightmares every single day. It's been years. 12 years? But the pain, the confusion, the trauma is still there. Fresh and never ceasing.
No one knows what I've gone through. Only one person knew and he kept it as a secret. Even my parents, they didn't know. I cannot imagine what they have done if they learned about it.
Let me tell you my story.
I was 10.
I had a huge crush on a high school senior 8 years older than me. I was a kid back then. I did not understand what serious love meant. For me, admiration or crush is equal to love. So I thought I loved him. He knew and he accepted it telling me that I was adorable.
He said I was still a kid so he's not allowed to have a relationship with me. Besides, he had a boyfriend back then. When I heard about it, experiencing my first heartbreak, I cried a lot. When I think about it now, it was funny. An in-love ten-year-old who experienced heartbreak.
I still saw him passing by. I always waited for him on my bedroom window. Wishing I was born the same year as he was. Perhaps, we could have been a couple. After a few more months, I noticed that he's not passing by anymore. I learned that he was pregnant with his boyfriend. I haven't heard from him since then.
You know, being a kid, I forget fast. After some time, I stopped waiting on my window. I grew up, and I focused my time looking after a kid, I considered as my younger brother. My dad's best friend's son, Seokjin. He was an adorable, cute kid. I guess he helped me be happy again.
The time came, my huge crush and I crossed paths again. It was funny he still remembered me. We talked, we laughed, that was an enjoyable night with him. I even forgot to ask about his child whom I believed was six years old at that time. I realized, my feelings for him were still there and at that time, I thought it was real love.
I didn't know how it happened. He booked a hotel room and we had sex. I was 16. But I certainly knew what I was doing. We had unprotected sex. I couldn't remember how many times we did it. It happened many times in different places. We met a lot more than twice, thrice, I could not count. I thought we were both in love. But I was wrong.
