What am I || Jack Avery & Daniel Seavey

twenty-nine

*Daniel's POV

I rang the doorbell and Bobby opened the door for me, because Corey was busy putting his pasta into his plate.

„WHAT UP BABYYYYYYYYYYY!" he immediately shouted trough the whole house when he saw me. „Daddy made some pasta, you hungry?" he showed me his plate and I couldn't help but chuckle at his ‚daddy'. He always says the weirdest, most hilarious shit ever, but that's Corey. He wouldn't be Corey otherwise.

„Honestly, nah bro. I appreciate it though." I sat down.

„I'm just gonna eat my pasta, while you tell me what happened." he sat down next to me.

It really amazes me how he just knows that somethings up. I don't even have to say anything, he just knows.
I told him everything. Everything that has been bothering me lately. The whole Jack and Souline drama. It honestly felt so liberating already, but my mind was still all over the place.

„I just don't know what to do? Do I still try even though it's obvious she has feelings for someone else as and it's fucking Jack? One of my best friends?" I ran my fingers through my hair.

„Do you love her?" he randomly asked.

„Does it even matter? She likes jack, she maybe even loves him." I sighed.

„You didn't answer my question. And to be honest, you not answering my question is the answer. Any idiot can see that you love her." he stated.

„Even if I do love her.." I paused for a second. "It still wouldn't change anything. I would fight for a girl who clearly wants someone else and then I get my heart broken and I really do not need that."

"At least, you could write great heartbreak songs about it." he joked. Typical Corey.

"I hate you." I laughed.

"But for real though. You want to know what I think? I think you should fight for her and show her why you're the right man for her. We're talking about love dude.. and if you love someone, you fight for them. And maybe you'll have your heart broken at the end, but at least you tried Daniel." he sighed. "I really wish it was easier, but love is never easy."

"Dude, you're right, but what if-"

"No buts. Stop thinking about all the 'What ifs'. What if I get my heart broken? What if she loves someone else? What if, What if, What if. There's so many What ifs, but let's make more 'Oh wells' out of if. Instead of thinking: 'What if I try and get my heart broken', think of it as: 'Oh well. I tried, it didn't work out and I got my heart broken, oh well!'. At least you tried, but you're not going to wonder about what could've happened, you know? Our lives should be full of more oh wells instead of what ifs." he explained.

"Man, I fucking love you."

"Okay, let's not get too cheesy here. I said try with Souline, not shoot your shot with me." he grinned like an idiot.

"Corey, seriously man. Thank you for everything. You're my man! Cheers."

I knew that Corey was a hundred percent right, but I needed some time before I could talk to Souline about us. I need to gather my thoughts first.

*Souline's POV

The rest of the week was exhausting. I had so much work to do that the only time I had some free time was when I went to the bathroom. The only good thing about it was that it really was distracting me. I really need distraction right now. I haven't seen Daniel since the beach thing with jack. I tried to talk to him, but he says he's busy or at least that's his excuse. I don't blame him though. I feel awful. He told me he liked me, I like him and we even kissed and I had to ruin it. Why do I ruin every good thing that happens to me? It really feels like I'm no good with love.
However, I was getting ready for a home party at Corey's tonight. I know Daniel's going to be there and it's going to be awkward, but I will try to at least explain my side of the story and tell him how I really feel. He deserves to know.

I wasn't really trying too hard with my outfit tonight, I just wanted to be comfy.

I arrived pretty late at the party, everyone was already there. This meeting I had today just wouldn't end. Like I said before, work was exhausting the last couple of days. At least it's friday and I swore to myself to not do any work this weekend.

As soon as I walked in, my eyes were looking for one specific person. I just needed to at least see him, even if he doesn't want to talk to me. It's the longest we've gone without talking to each other. I don't think there has been a day we didn't speak to each other since we met. I looked around and then I saw him. Our eyes met, but it wasn't the way we usually looked at each other. It felt distant and he looked away immediately.

„Just go and talk to him." Corey appeared next to me.

„He clearly doesn't want to talk to me. He didn't event look at me for more than 2 seconds. I fucked up big time." my eyes still on Daniel.

„Maybe you did, but it still didn't change the fact that this guy over there is so in love with you."

„He is?" I looked surprised.

„Go and find out." he grinned.

„What if he doesn't want to talk to me?"

„Soul, what do I always say?" he raised an eyebrow.

„I know, I know. More oh wells instead of what ifs."

„Thank me later." he gave me a hug and kissed the top of my head.

„You're honestly the best Corey. Love you."

„I know I am. I still can't understand how you would choose Daniel over me." he joked around. „Love you more." he walked away with a grin on his face.

{Hey guys! I wanted to dedicate this chapter to Corey. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that he really is gone, but I know he is alright wherever he might be. I hope he knows how appreciated he was and forever will be. He was a light in so many peoples lives. He could brighten up anybody's day. He made everyone feel special and appreciated even if you've never met him before, because he made everyone feel like his friend.
Life's way too short. Let's live it more like Corey. More oh wells instead of what ifs. Let's appreciate every moment we have like it could be our last. Let's tell the people in our lives, we love them every single day.
Rest In Peace Corey. Heaven gained an angel. There's never goodbyes in this world it's always see you agains. You're forever appreciated. Love you.💙🕊}