swasan... i do... (Completed)

Chap 26- The Painful Past

Thank you so much all for good wishes. See.. i know you all are angry over sanskar for being so mean. But he is not mean. He is just impulsive.
And swara is not weak too. Let the past unfold properly. Just let the past unfold.
There is a syndrom known as post traumatic stress disorder which at some point of our life we all feel. Like after someone's death, harsh breakups etc. The level of intensity is different as per person's vulnerability. The same is for swara and sanskar.
Sanskar had a great trauma about kavita. Therefore when he got even a slightest ditch from swara, his brain involuntarily started to think swara as kavita.
Swara too had trauma. And her every trauma is greater than sanskar's. You will get to see everything in this chapter.

Chap
Night was dark but darker was swara's life. She was staring outside the window. Sanskar was sleeping soundly due to effect of medicine. Swara came near him and patted his hair lightly. Sanskar opened his eyes for a while and closed them again. Swara smiled a little. She knew he is intoxicated with medicine. She bent and kissed his forehead but suddenly sanskar pulled her hand and kissed it a little. He was mumbling something in his sleep.
Sanskar: i love you a lot swara... i love you..
Swara's eyes filled up with tears hearing this.
Swara: i love you too sanskar.
Sankar went again in deep slumber. Swara covered him properly with a comforter and came near window again.
Flashback were coming in front of her eyes.
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Swara and sahil became good friends. Kavya too started liking sahil for swara. The way he cared for swara, his anxiety for swara, his emotions for swara were not hidden from swara too.
Kavya: dont you think you should think about being couple with sahil
Swara: it's just 6 months kavya.
Kavya: so what? He loves you and it is evident from his eyes and your eyes too.
Swara blushed.
On the other side, sahil and his friends were teasing sahil about kavya.
Sahil: yr.. i know kavya's life is swara. She is a good girl too. But you know.. not of my type.
Friend: you love kavya na?
Sahil: yess...
Friend: then go and tell her.
Sahil sent a bunch of roses to swara's room in hostel. Kavya and swara were roommates.
Kavya: ooooo... roses.. that too on valentines day...
Swara blushed again.
Kavya: you are telling him today that's it.

@garden
Sahil was standing waiting for kavya. Kavya and swara came.
Swara: sahil... i....
Sahil: swara...
Swara: i love you too sahil.
Sahil was shocked to hear this. Before he could react, kavya pushed swara in sahil's embrace.
Kavya: i know sahil... thank you so much for filling my swara's life with happiness.
@ evening
Sahil was sitting with his friend.
Friend: why the hell you did not tell swara that you love kavya?
Sahil: because kavya doesnt love me. If i ll tell kavya then she will never accept me. And break the friendship too.
Friend: and what about swara yr? She loves you and when she ll get to know the reality she ll be broken.
Sahil: that is not my problem.
Friend: yr.. this is wrong. There are many boys who would like to be with swara. They will keep her happy. You are closing every door for her.
Sahil: i dont care. I just want my kavya and either by hook or crook i ll get her.

Days passed like this. Swara kavya and sahil used to hang out a lot. But without kavya sahil avoided hanging out with swara. At times he used to become harsh over swara.
Sahil: you cheap mindless freak. You are good for nothing.
Every time sahil said these words, a piece of swara's heart got scarred. She did never get any love from anyone. So when she thought someone will love her from all his heart, she immediately gave her everything to him.
She hid his anger initially from kavya. But in due time kavya got to know everything.
Kavya: swara.. why dont you break up with him? He is not worth your love.
Swara smiled everytime hearing this question.
Swara: he will change for sure.
2 years passed like this. One fine day kavya swara and sahil were sitting in college garden when laksh came near swara.
Laksh: swara.. can you help me out with these diagrams?
Swara nodded. Suddenly sahil's eyes brightened with an idea. Swara went with laksh leaving kavya and sahil alone.
Sahil: kavya, swara is double crossing me.
Kavya: what the hell and how dare you to talk about swara like this
Sahil: this laksh and swara
Kavya: your dirty mind
Sahil: you see.. they are friends... more than just good friends
Kavya: listen sahil. No more words again laksh and swara. Not even a single word. They are good friends. Swara always helps him. He too respects her a lot. They both are best friends.
Sahil did not find it right time to say anything.
Days passed like this. But everyday sahil's torture on swara was increasing. He had restricted her from doing things she loved. He had restricted her from talking to anyone. Everytime if it was sahil's fault he poured all the blame over swara.
Sahil: why the hell are you wearing your kuti without dupatta?
Swara: but ...
Sahil: shut up.. i said na...i dont need reasons. Just cover yourself up.
Swara obliged like an obedient girl.