swasan... i do... (Completed)

chap 32

It was night time. Maheshwaries were sitting out of the ward in which sanskar was just shifted. Although there was a degree of relief but still there was tension. It will take time for sanskar to recover. There was a lot of blood loss during the surgery. He was going to be weak... very weak.

Swara sat near ap.
Swara: mom.. we should go home.
Ap looked unwillingly at her.
Dp: ha ap ji. We shoould go home. Our son is fine now. When he will open his eyes, he will be disappointed to see you so pale.
Ap sighed. She looked at swara.
Ap: you too have to come with me. Nurse was saying that you were on night duty yesterday.
Swara: yes mom but...
Ap: no but. Laksh was telling me that it was hospital stress due to which this happened to sanskar. And you too are stressing yourself. This is the order of your mom.

Laksh was sitting in sanskar's ward on a couch nearby. Everyone went to home. He patted his hair lightly. Sanskar's forehead was covered in a big bandage. There were bluish marks on his face. His body was a little warm due to little fever. His nose and mouth were covered with oxygen mask.
Laksh: bhaiya... never scare us please.
Two drops of tear fell from his eyes.

Swara finally made ap and dp sleep in sanskar's room. Twinkle made adrak wali chai for ragini and her.
Swara: you please go home. It's very late.
Twinkle smiled.
Twinkle: madame... why did you think that i will go home today. You all are so good. There is a problem in this family and i can't leave you all alone.
Swara smiled.
Ragini: aunty.. then you please rest.
Swara: open the spare room. Please stay there. Dont sleep in the kitchen.

It was late in night. Ragini was still not asleep and so was swara.
Swara: ragini... will sanskar feel guilty?
Ragini: yes... he will definitely. But it will be you who will make him realise it was not his fault.
Swara stared at the photo of her and sanskar. She wanted to hug him tightly. She wanted to assure him that she was okay.

Morning rays brightened the days. Maheshwaris were sitting outside the ward. Anaesthesia had started to wear off. His fingers had started to move. His body twiched a little sometimes. His eyeballs moved a little. His vitals were good.

It was afternoon. Swara was sitting near sanskar on a stool. His hand was in between hers. Suddenly swara felt a strong grip on her hand. His head tried to move. His eyeballs rolled.
Swara: sanskar... calm down. I am here haa... i am here.
His eyes opened slightly. He looked at swara.
Swara: sanskar... you ...  wait... i ll call doctor..
She stood up and was about to go when she felt a tug on her finger. Sanskar was holding her hand tightly.
Swara: ha sanskar.. bas i am coming in a second.
Swara saw sanskar's lips moving trying to say sonething. She removed his oxygen mask and cupped his face.
Swara: ha sanskar.. boliye.. i am here.. say..
With a feeble voice, he whisperd..
Sanskar: nooo... don't go swara... don't leave... no...
Swara felt tears building up in her eyes. How the hell she thought of suicide. Why didn't she got a single thought of sanskar!
Swara looked at sanskar who was still muttering some inaudible words under his breathe while clutching swara's fingers tightly.
Swara: yes... i am not going anywhere. I am here sanskar. I am here for you. Always.
Swara felt the clutch on her finger was loosened. Sanskar again went into slumber. She put back his oxygen mask and straightened his tilted face.
Swara: wake up lazy head. I want you to hug me. I want you to fight with me. I want you to scold me.
She wiped her tears and smiled a little.

Evening was about to turn into night. Due to built up stress and physical weakness after abortion, swara's body was not able to cope up with her needs. She managed the hospital in sanskar's absence taking his patients. She also managed to make sure ap and dp were alright. Although she was free from home's duty, thanks to ragini, but still in between she missed her meals yet again.

After finishing night's last patient she went to sanskar. Laksh was sitting there with sanskar.
Swara: mom dad went to home?
Laksh: just sent them.
Swara: anaesthesia had started to wear off na.
Laksh: yes... he is still not completely conscious. But replies to everything you ask in the best possible way as per his condition.
Swara smiled a little. She put her hands in his hair and carressed a little.
Swara: sanskar...
Sanskar's eyes opened a little and closed again. For a moment swara felt as if she could cry right now. He was so weak. But she composed herself.
Laksh: dr roy was saying that recovery is in a good pace.
Swara smiled. Laksh looked at her.
Laksh: why did you feel worthless swara? See... there are 3 lives dependant on you. Not only bhaiya, even me and ragu would have died you knoe.
Swara lowered her gaze. She knew she was wrong.
Laksh: but i won't blame you. Don't stress yourself. You need time to recover. Nothing was in your hand.
Swara nodded. But her heart was aching seeing sanskar in this state, all due to her.
Laksh: you too go and take rest. I am here with bhaiya.
Swara: no laksh..
Laksh: shhhh... you need to be there when he wakes up. He is still in guilt.