when a smile drops [ BrightWin | SarawaTine ]

page #16; part two

9:12 p.m

i know there is one moment in our lives we begin to question everything, from what? when? where? how? to why?

we are very curious we wanted every answers the world has hidden from us. what is it that you want? when will you get it? where would it be? how can you get it? why do you want it?

and we will be thirsty for the answers we embark into journeys that changes our lives.

"Why do people die?" Bright, staring blankly in the space asked. we were still by the ocean, our butts rested on the cold sand.

i sighed not knowing what to respond. the moon was reflecting its light on the waves giving us enough light to see each other's faces.

i could hear him taking a heavy breath, trying to calm down. i held his hand. when he turned his head to look at me, i gave him the smile i always wanted to end.

"I don't know the reason why we die... But, from the very moment you set your eyes on me..." i paused, smiling even more.

"I knew I want to live. I wil live for you."

he knocked on my door and i let him come in because i believe he would change me for good. i let him wander inside my door and now is the time to let him enter a special room in my heart. everything suddenly is a revelation like a prophecy has come true; a boy who wanted to kill himself finally met the reason he would live again.

i questioned the world and the universe gave me the answer. Bright was the answer and the reason for me to keep my life. he is the small streak of light, my hope, my happiness and i would not let him be what i was when he hasn't met me.

i don't want him to live to the world so dark you couldn't escape from pain. i will save him like how he saved me.

my heart was jumping off my chest. the wind was cold but i could feel the heat rising on my body.

i slowly moved my head forward and pressed my lips on his. i was kissing him with my eyes-closed but he wasn't kissing me back.

i stopped and looked away.

"I'm sorry..." was all i could say as my heart breaks.

"Win..." i looked at him and saw him smiling.

"Please, don't close your eyes when you kiss me..." he leaned his head towards me and locked his eyes on mine.

"Because this is the best moment and i want you to see it."

he held on my hand and kissed me. it was a passionate kiss. it was a kiss i wouldn't forget all my life. a kiss that was brimming with love.

the world may be a problematic place but whatever, let's face the problems together, Bright.

we were under the moonlight, crying, kissing, watched by the stars.

and tomorrow when we wake up, i will never think of my killing myself again.

"I love you, Bright." i said between our kiss.

"I love you too, Win."

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