when a smile drops [ BrightWin | SarawaTine ]

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1:59 a.m

how long has it been since the last time i wrote on this diary? i cannot count the days but i can still remember our moments we shared to those days. watching movies late at night became our hobby and in the morning you wake me up with a delicious breakfast you cooked.

those memories are still clear on my mind and i won't ever forget the way you embrace me on your arms when i get too cold in the evening breeze. i won't forget your lips on mine as we shower each other kisses and love. if only people could turn back time, i would keep coming back to live to the past.

on the new year's eve, we stayed inside the white house with a glass of wine on our hands. we were drinking so giddily while watching a romantic comedy drama.  we were on the sofa, my head rested on your wide shoulders. i stared at your face. that beautiful face. your eyes were gleaming, they sparkle like the TV screen.

the only thing i want in my life is happiness and you are my happiness because i want you each time i breathe. i want to get closer to you. to get glued to you so we'd always be together. have you ever wonder how badly we want to live a life filled with joy but the world is just too fucked up and we stumble to great despair?

but we keep trying to be happy. i keep trying to smile for you and to never lose the chance you gave me, again, to live my life.

i reached for your lips and ran my thumb on them. the softness made my heart race and when you looked straight at my eyes, i surrendered to the feelings.

"I love you, Bright..." i mumbled and you gave me the sweetest smile before putting down the glass wine on your hands to the table. you grabbed both of my hands and softly rubbed them to heat them up because the night was a shiver.

"I love you too, Win." you said and kissed me passionately. i closed my eyes and held on your hands tightly. i don't want to let you go. i don't want to let go of the beautiful moment. we were kissing and the light from the TV screen kisses our blushing bodies.

i could feel your breath and everytime we crave for each other we begin to forget to breathe. we stopped. we were heavily breathing. we laughed and drank some more of the wine.

once again, we kissed and while our lips are one, you grabbed the remote and turned off the T.V. you guided me up to stand and in a blink of an eye you were already carrying me, my legs wrapped on your waist and my hands searching the map of your back, stroking it lightly as i feel your tongue explore the insides of my mouth.

you walked towards the bedroom and when we were already there, you stopped kissing me to put me down the bed. i could see your face flushed with excitement and i knew i my face was as red as yours.

"Can we do it?" you asked.

"Do what?" was all i could say. pretending i didn't know what you meant. i heard you laugh. you sat down beside me and rested your back on my shoulder.

"Let's do it when you are re-" i did not let you finish talking. i was already on top of you, taking your shirt off.

"Woah." you smiled cheekily and pinched my nose.

"Wild bunny." you teased.

that night was the first time we made our bodies unite and our hearts are drunk in love.

i wouldn't hesitate to do everything for you. i wouldn't regret anything with you because all i want in my life is happiness.

and to be happy, it must be with you, my one and only happiness.

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