when a smile drops [ BrightWin | SarawaTine ]

page #06

1:23 a.m

maybe today, after so many years, i felt alive again.

i thought i was already buried six feet underground waiting for my body to decay but magic do really happen; doing its work to turn things upside down.

Bright asked me if i want to come with him after the class and i gladly agreed though i was clueless where will we go. it was like i was ready to go with him to every places he wants to visit.

we went to the parking lot and went inside his  car. i was on the backseat but he told me to sit beside him. we were casually talking to each other and i like it that i am getting to know him.

this is a start of my discovery.

he said he likes photography and music.

"Do you wanna come visit my house sometimes? I would be glad to show you some of the photos i took." his eyes were focused on the road. he was smiling and i was enjoying the view. i like the smile on his lips and the wrinkles on his face when he beams. everything is perfectly made for him.

i nodded my head.

"Y-yes..." i couldn't help but imagine what would his room be like.

way back home my room is plain, too normal because i don't want to collect things for i do not want to leave any traces of me that could trigger memories.

i know we tend to be forgetful but when we remember, we relive moments and i am afraid to bring life to the past. memories are hard to battle and i am doing my best to forget what happened yesterday and move forward for another tomorrow.

not every memories are beautiful.

i was mentally exhausted and physically tired from walking around the university that i drifted to sleep, once again, on his car.

when i opened my eyes, the first one that i see was his face; so close to me i could feel him hold his breath.

Bright was leaning forward, topping my body. if i dare to move, our chest would brush and i would set my heart on fire. he was staring at me, letting his eyes wander around my face. my lips, my nose, then back to my eyes.

"Sorry." he muffled and unfastened my seatbelt.

he went outside the car and then i noticed the people coming and the flare of lights from the carnival.

a smile was suddenly on my face. i stepped out of the car and indulged with the view.

it was already dark and the darkness made the carnival lights shine beautifully.

"You know I really like it when you flash that smile." he said, grinning from ear to ear.

i smiled back at him.

"Why did you bring me to the carnival?" i asked.

"So I could you see you smile again."

i know the carnival is a lively place with people having fun. i know my ears would hurt to the noise all around me but all i could hear was the beating of my heart. he was looking directly into my eyes with a smile plastered on his face.

i stared back at him, surrendering myself to his eyes, letting him see through me and leave me bare.

i couldn't stop the tears on my eyes and at the same time, my lips curving up to the heavens.

for that moment, he was in control of me. of all the emotions i held. i was vulnerable and it seems like he knew me all this time. like i have known him before or thousand years ago and he knows every part of my story.

he wiped my tears away and held my hands. he walked me to the crowd and guided me all night.

i was crying like a child and like a child, i would smile and be genuinely happy to be brought in a place like the carnival.

we rode the horses in the carousel and enjoyed the rides. the night is getting deeper and the people are beginning to fade as they go back to their houses.

Bright said we could get the last ride on the ferris wheel. he asked me to get tickets and wait for him there.

when i get to the ferris wheel, there was no one around except for the guard who dearly smiled at me.

i waited for him and when he came back he was holding two bunny-shaped cotton candies.

"Let's get in." he said and the guard guided us to get on the ferris wheel.

on the ride as we go up and down slowly, there was silence.

my heart was beating so fast it could break my ribcage and my cheeks would burn whenever we look at each other.

"Oh, i almost forgot..." he whispered. he gave me both of the cotton candies and he took out his phone.

he moved beside me, our shoulders brushing, my heart wilding.

"Let's take a picture. One... Two... Three... Smile."

but i was just looking at him while holding the cotton candies. i was smiling realizing i just had the best night of my life.

the ferris wheel stopped when we were at the top. i was taken aback and he held my hand.

i tried so hard to avoid his eyes.

"Don't be scared. I asked them to stop it. Look above."

The sky was full of stars and the moon was so bright that it could lit the darkness inside me.

i wish i could stay on that moment. i wish i could stop time i would choose to stay on the ferris wheel under the starry sky with him.

i giggled and let myself get drunk on the view.

"Thank you, Bright." was all i could say to him.

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