What The Heart Wants (Stereo Kicks/ James Graham)

Chapter 48

"I love you, Aria." James whispered softly as he held my face in his hands. "No." I accidentally blurted out of nowhere. "No?" He looked at me confused. "I mean...you shouldn't love me." I sighed. I didn't know what to say to him. I'm going to end up back in America eventually, but he doesn't know that since I lied and told him I would move my mom here. "How could I not love you? You're my best friend, my favorite person in the entire world. Every time something good or bad happens, you're the first person I want to tell. I want you to be mine. And I want you to want me too." He persisted. "James." I sighed. "You already know how I feel about you—" "No I don't." He cut me off. I thought for a few seconds and became slightly upset. "I love you!" I yelled in frustration. "Are you happy? I'm completely and irrevocably in love with you. You're the reason I wake up every morning with a smile on my face, and every day spent with you becomes the best day of my life and I'm terrified. I have never felt this way about anyone in all of my nineteen years and I have no clue what to do or what to say and I'm freaking out because I always have the answers but right now the only thing I actually know for certain is that...I love you." I finally admitted. Instead of replying, he pulled me in for a bone crushing hug. I gladly wrapped my arms around his waist and squeezed him back. "You don't have to be scared. As long as you're trying, I'm staying. We're going to be fine." He whispered into my hair. I closed my eyes and inhaled his musky scent. "I could stay here for the rest of my life." I whispered. "In London?" He asked. "In your arms." I corrected and he squeezed me closer. "We should head back. We have our final rehearsal in just a few minutes." He said. "You're right." I grudgingly pulled away and we both stood up, our fingers intertwined. When we got back to the house, we went straight to the vocal room where the boys were waiting for us. Nobody said anything to either of us. I assume it was because they all read the story about the abortion and they just didn't know what to say. "Morning guys!" Yvie beamed as she walked in the room.

The boys and I easily made it through vocals and choreography and then we were let off for the rest of the day. By the time we got home from the theater it was 3:15pm and I was already dreading going to work tonight. I knew I would have to spend most the night in the private rooms since I missed work last night. So I get to spend my night grinding on old men who think it's ok to touch me where ever they want. Ugh. Lucky me.

I'M SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT AND THE SHITTY CHAPTER. I'M JUST REALLY BUSY. I PROMISE NEXT CHAPTER THERE IS GOING TO BE MORE CASEY FOR ALL MY CASEY LOVERS!! ;D PS- HAPPY HOLIDAYS MY LOVELIES! ♡