What The Heart Wants (Stereo Kicks/ James Graham)

chapter 56

I feel like I'm going to pass out. James is never going to talk to me again. He hates me. I don't know when it happened, but I somehow went from standing, to lying in the fetal position in the middle of my bedroom floor. "Aria?" Someone tried to get my attention but I couldn't focus. It sounded like I was in a tunnel and whoever was trying to get me to respond was a million miles away. I kept replaying everything that happened that night in my head. The look of James' face when he seen me at the club, him not being able to look at me the entire night, him fighting the security guards so I could go home, the way he looked at me when I admitted I was moving back to America, and him leaving without looking back. I might have been being dramatic before, but I actually did feel like I was going to pass out now. I had extreme lightheadedness and--

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"But she'll be ok right?"

"Yes, she'll be fine. She just needs fluids and rest. Lots of rest."

"When will she be able to leave? I mean...she has a show tonight..."

"Well I see no reason why she won't be able to go home once she wakes up. Of course I'll have to check her vitals and run a few more tests just to make sure everything actually is ok."

"Great. Thank you so much."

"James?" I croaked. My throat felt like sandpaper. "Aria! Oh thank god. You scared the hell out of me!" Caden ran over to the side of my bed and grasped my hand. "Where's James?" I looked around the unnaturally bright hospital room. Wait. "Why am I in the hospital?" I asked Caden. "Because you're an idiot, that's why." Caden rolled his eyes. "You passed out. You and James got into a fight...and then you kinda became incoherent for a few minutes before you actually blacked out." Caden explained. Suddenly I remembered James leaving, me falling to the ground and not being able to breath. Somebody, Caden I guess, tried getting me to respond and then darkness. "Why did I pass out?" I asked. "You passed out," a strange man in a doctors coat made his way next to my bed. "Because you were not only extremely sleep deprived, but you also had an enormous amount of stress forced onto you at once. Your brain couldn't handle it so it's natural response was to make it all go away. It temporarily shut down, and that's what caused the black out." The doctor elaborated. I just nodded my head and looked at Caden, who was looking at me with a mixture of pity and sympathy. "I'll be back in just a few minutes to check your vitals." The doctor announced before leaving the room. Caden and I sat in comfortable silence for a few moments before I broke it. "The boys?" I whispered. "They're at the house getting ready for tonight. I think you should call them though. They all keep blowing up my phone asking how you're doing." Caden chuckled. "All of them?" I asked, and felt a little swell of hope in my chest. He just sighed and shook his head. "He just needs time to process." Caden whispered as he lightly squeezed my hand. And just as fast as it appeared, the splinter of hope was gone. He really did hate me. "Here. Call them." Caden offered me his phone and I dialed Casey's number, only because I knew he would have his phone on him. He was always on his phone. It rang two times before he answered. "Caden? Is she alright? Tell me she'll be ok." He rambled. "I'm going to be fine." I giggled lightly into the phone. "Oh my god. You're awake." He sighed into the phone. "Boys! It's Aria!" He yelled, and I heard random shouts from the other end of the phone. There were so many of them talking at once I only got bits and pieces of what they said. "Great...hear....voice...tonight...tired...worried..." I smiled gratefully at the noise and waited until they were finished. "Alright, I'll be home soon. See you guys later." I said and then hung up and gave Caden his phone back. "See? Nothing's changed." Caden smiled. "Everything has changed. Caden, I can't go back to America." I said. "What? No, we'll talk about it later. Right now we need to get you home. You have dress rehearsal in an hour." He said before helping me into a sitting position so we could wait for the doctor to return.

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Half an hour later and I was finally on my way home. When we pulled up outside the house I felt a little pinch in my chest at the thought of seeing James. "You're going to be ok." Caden said, as if he could read my mind. I nodded my head and took a deep breath before getting out of the car and walking inside. There was an eerie silence to the house that has never been there before. Especially on a show day. I silently walked upstairs and to my surprise, all, and I do mean all of the boys were waiting in the hallway with a banner that read 'thanks for not dying'. It was decorated with hearts and smiley faces and music notes. As I got closer I could see each boy wrote a special message.

Tom: Thank god you didn't croak on us! :)

Chris: Glad you're ok. We need you ♡

Barclay: Welcome back! :)

Reece: So glad you're ok. We missed you.

Charlie: YOU'RE OK! :) PS- I'm still mad you're leaving :(

Jake: Glad you're ok. You're the only responsible one in the group.

Casey: Don't ever scare me like that again. You're a terrible friend. ♡

James: Glad you're ok.

I smiled at the messages and they engulfed me in a group hug. Except James, who went back to his room. Ugh, seriously? I thought we were getting somewhere, but clearly I was wrong.

SO WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK? SHOULD JAMES FORGIVE ARIA? SHOULD ARIA STAY IN THE UK?! I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT! (I'M A TERRIBLE WRITER WHEN IT COMES TO PLANNING OUT THE STORY PLOT.) LOL THANKS FOR READING ♡