Made for me🖤

Part twenty nine

Monae's POV

I brought the paper cup filled with steaming hot coffee to my lips and blew air into it repeatedly before taking a sip from it.

The hot liquid stinging my tongue as it fell on it. "Oww!" I yelped, almost throwing the cup away as I quickly put it in the cup holder and brought my hands to my lips, fanning my tongue. The damn coffee burnt my tongue even after I blew air into it, I guess I didn't try hard enough.

Michy snapped his head in my direction at my outburst, he didn't ask anything. Me fanning my tongue was answer enough. "Sorry." He muttered, looking back at the road.

The car came to a stop and he leaned in, tilting my head to look at him as he brought his face to mine. Michy began to blow air on my scalded tongue.

As he did that, I tried my best not to see affected by it but it was difficult with the way he kept staring at me. I pushed him off me not so hard and lowered my gaze to my laps. "It's fine now." I said after a while then made for the cup of coffee.

"Okay." Was all he said before starting the car.

I made an attempt to drink the coffee again but was stopped by Michy's authoritative voice, "don't, it isn't advisable. Try taking in ice cooled water."

"Let's stop by a convenience shop and get a bottle, there isn't any here." I said, trying not to sound annoyed. I was late already and stopping by a convenience shop wasn't advisable but I dare not contradict this man here, his tone said it all.

I resigned in my seat as I rolled my eyes, looking anywhere but him. He was the very reason why I'm late for lectures today and the same reason, I might not go. If only he never invited me last night into his room just to talk through out the night, rolling into dawn, I would have gotten my needed sleep and I would woken up earlier than I did. Then I wouldn't have needed that damn coffee which only ended up scalding my tongue and as if it isn't bad enough, I have to sit in this car longer just to get a bottle of cold water.

It isn't like I hate being in this car or his presence, far from that. I actually enjoy riding with him every morning when I go for lectures and back home after I'm done so do I love being in his presence.

But the thing is, I don't want things going further than where they are, I even wish it would change back to how we were before I stayed with him.

Over the weekend, I realized there's this pull between us that we both feel. It isn't sexual tension, it is something else that is just like love sparks. I've started feeling it anytime he's around me or any little contact between us, warn feelings cascade over me which leaves me wanting things I shouldn't dream of.

He's just a friend and I only want it to remain like that as agonizing as it feels, it has to be like that. I've never been in a relationship before and I never will especially not with Michy because all men are the same.

You literally cut your chest open, tearing out your heart for them, they only snatch it and instead of preserving it with everything within them, they trample on it under their feet after stabbing it in painful ways.

My mother had to suffer a lot because of her love for my father that became her weakness, Roxie also shared the same fate and I'm not ready to share that mutual history with them, that will be until I meet my mr right, or soul mate. Isn't it a universal fact every person on earth has one?

Maybe one of these days or maybe later, he's going to come along and sweep me off my feet to the extent, I will lose myself to love like mama did.

But why then does it feel like I've met that special someone already? There's actually someone who has managed to sweep me off my feet in such a way no man has ever been able to, a man who makes me want to smash this thick wall I have guarded around my heart so I can be free to love and as hard as I try to deny it, that man is no other than Michy.