Made for me🖤

Part thirty one

Michy's POV

Punching my damn wall after I came back to my room didn't do anything to ease the pain that I'm feeling in my heart. My behavior towards her tonight isn't justifiable, I can't give  any reasonable excuse to make up for it. I've hurt her in a way I never meant to, a way I wish I can do something to erase.

The most embarrassing thing is, I know why I behaved like that. As hard as I hate to admit it, I was a pussy, a wimp. I took out my anger and jealousy on her instead of drawing her closer to me now, I've pushed her far away, further than I want.

I was in a bad mood, a very angry mood after that meeting with my mother. Today she made me relive the most excruciatingly painful memory I have tried my best all these years to buried.

It set me in a state of great anguish that I left there and went over to Drake's. Her annoying ass nagging wife was at home, she made my mood worse so I left, going to a bar. I wish I consumed a lot of alcohol into my system, that way I would have forgotten how shitty my life is at the moment, maybe then I would have been so wasted and gone to bed and not go over to Monae's to wait for her, all these could have been avoided.

Unfortunately, that wasn't the case. I came back home, the stench of alcohol that was once comforting made me want to gag. Ever since I met Monae two years ago, I don't know what came over me but I chose to be a different person. I decided to do away with my bad lifestyle, I made myself better for her because I knew deep down someday I was going to meet her. I quit drinking and I stopped having promiscuous affairs.

I realized after coming home, how quickly time had flown. In my fist of rage, I had forgotten Monae was at school and I needed to go pick her up but I didn't trust myself to go there sanely so I sent over Michy. He came back to tell me she said she wasn't going to come home and that she left with another man in his car.

My Monae with another man? I immediately sent Alex to tail her to find out who she went out with. You know Monae is naive, she doesn't know how unsafe she is out there in the hands of other men.

I went ballistic when Alex told me the man is no other than Rexford Winchester, that prick! That scumbag! I started thrashing things in my room, how can she do this not only to me but herself? She gladly went into the arms of the man who's family had caused her so much grief.

How could she?! I thought they were friends but after asking her who he was, she said a special friend, the way her eyes shone and her face lit up I knew there was something more than that. Right there and then I allowed my anger towards Rex and my jealousy rule me and get the better of me. Now I'm paying for it, I know if Elias were to be here he will be bitching in my ears why I should always control my anger.

Thankfully he isn't here and I need to get rid of this pain in my heart, I never knew love could be like this.

I walked out of my room, banging the door. Her room was across mine and as I passed by it, I heard what sounded like sobs coming from there. I badly wanted to go inside there and comfort, wipe away her tears and make up for my actions but I know it's a bad idea. I caused her the pain, I caused her to shed tears, my presence will be torturing enough and she also told me to stay away from her. I love her so very much, more than I ever though I'll love someone so I'm going to respect her wish.

I went into the kitchen, to the cabinet where Asabrewaa keeps the alcohol out of my reach. I opened it, coming into contact with the stash of vodka, whiskey, bourbon and wine bottles. I picked up two bottles of vodka and three of whiskey, I haven't done this in a long time but tonight, I'm going to drink my sorrows away.