ChaoS

26- Painful Cries

Warning: Mentions of rape, emotional trauma and so forth will occur in the chapter.

Chapter 26- Painful Cries

Angel's POV

"I'll take Daisy now." Ace announced beside me, he had just finished eating his lunch. Everyone already finished theirs and had carried on talking about nothing in particular, they were switching topics every other statement.

He reached out, his arm brushing against the side on my right breast to get a hold of both of Daisy's sides. My heart froze and my eyes widen before I pummeled into a memory I had managed to bury for nine years.

His hand slipped and brushed against my right breast. His eyes widen like a child who found the most delicious candy.

'So soft.' It came out in a lustful whisper that sounded like a monster's voice to my ear.

'No please don't.' I rushed out but Spade or Ace I don't know which it is anymore I just want him out and off me.

His large palm came down, assaulting my breast. I weakly clamped my arm around his and tried to push his disgusting hand off but I was so weak. My vision was even more hazy, not from the tears this time, I knew I was going in and out of consciousness.

I had no control, no energy, no strength and my will wasn't enough to stop him or to fight off the oncoming unconsciousness.

'Ma...ma..ma'

I blinked multiple times to clear this Haze over my eyes and return to reality. I focused in on Angelo's voice. "Ma?"

"Yes?" My voice came out a bit hoarse, thick with emotions. My heart was racing, trying to run ahead of that memory.

"I was asking if we could go to the gaming room where we went yesterday, after the battle is over?" He repeated, assessing my face.

"Uhm yeah sure." I approved, swallowing thickly to hopefully push down the unwanted emotions back into the jar I had secured them in and sealed with a smile.

Angelo looked at me even more suspiciously when I smiled, "Are you okay, ma?"

"Yeah of course why you asked?" I crunched my eyebrows, casting a confused look that I hope was convincing.

"Then why is there a tear on your face?" It was Angela this time, she asked. Her face was straight and serious, intimidating; a look I haven't seen on her for a long time.

I blinked rapidly, wiping away the tear that had trail down my left cheek. I giggled, putting on a bright smile.

"It's nothing, just a stray tear, you know how they are. They come when they feel like." I laughed, wrapped my arm secure around Lily in my lap. To keep me anchored to the present and reality.

"They do have a mind of their own." Ace chuckled, I flinched slighty at his voice.

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"Okay goodnight, my angels and my flower." I placed a kiss on each their forehead before turning off the lamps and ceiling light.

"Goodnight." They yawned out, all that gaming must have tired them out.

I turned and closed the door quietly behind me, I leaned on it to hold my weight and breathe out a painful breath. I pulled a smile onto my face and forced out a giggle then opened the door to my room.

I stripped from my clothes and entered the shower, the water flowed along my body but sadly it didn't have the desired effect.

"You're so tight." He moaned out.

I squeezed my eyes shut and gripped my arms tightly across my chest. It couldn't wash away these memories, it couldn't wash away this slimy feeling on my skin, it couldn't wash away my pain.

I turned off the shower and started to shave my legs to occupy my mind, not wanting to leave my mind unoccupied to start slipping me into those memories. I went slow and thoroughly but even then time still went by the same. I started the last stroke needed to finish my shaving.

"Such soft and thick thighs. So perfect." Another moan before his hand slipped from beside me and brush my chest.

I gritted my teeth and clammed my eyes shut but I could still see the images playing in my head. I threw the razor across the room and shoved on my robe, tying the knot. I rushed to the balcony doors and pushed them open. The night breeze attacked my heated skin but it couldn't calm the burning inside, away from sight.

I jumped over the railing pummelling to the ground fast. Of course I was dropping so fast, I was on the third floor. I dropped into a crouch before running towards the woods, my robe fluttering in the wind but covered what needed to. I wish I could be in wolf form, get out of my skin but that's not an option.

I let my feet carry me away, I was running. I just trying to out run this memory, to out running the pain, the feeling of his hands on me. At last I couldn't do that, it was imprinted and engraved into my mind. I had buried them, I had pushed them down with my smiles and laughter, I had pushed them down with looking on the positive side. I had three wonderful angels but one graze from him and it all came erupting with raging vengeance all directed at me.

Eventually my legs gave out, the lake laid before me. Parts of it sparkled from where the moonlight seeped in through cracked in the tree's barrier. The tears came rushing out, the painful cries burst out against my will. I grasped my chest, wanting to get rid of this pain, I want it gone.

I kept it in for hours, all day even when Ace had decided to sit in the row directly behind me at the arena. When the memories flashed through my mind, when the ache in my chest burned like a fire blazing inside burning me inside out. Even when I heard his voice floating from behind me to my ears. I had kept it all in but now I'm at my limit, I can't keep it in anymore.

Tears gushed, cries choked out my mouth leaving me alternating between gasping for air and choking out sobs. I gripped my chest trying to somehow get a hold of it but nothing worked. My cries just got louder and the pain infused in them equally as loud. Arms circled around me, pulling me into a comforting solid chest. It was warm, pleasant; I felt comforted. For the first time in a long long long time I felt safe, a smiled graced my lips as the sobs muffled out in a chest. I knew I shouldn't let a stranger hold me that I didn't even see the face of but you embrace was so pleasant in my point of weakness.

No words were said, I don't know who it was that held me so securely but it was the most secure I felt since my parents. I cried and cried, I let everything out not only the pain from being raped, not just the pain from been rejected but I let out everything.

The pain and sorrow from my parents murder, the loneliness I felt that had tried to consume me every time my angels were not around. Even the heartache from the lost of Beser, I released it all, the pain and sorrow in those cries and sob. It left so relieving to have someone embrace me, it didn't feel like all this weight was pressing down on me anymore. Before I knew it, exhaustion took over and I succumbed into a peaceful sleep.