What We Almost Had.

IX

Bellia's POV

Apat na dekada na kaming kasal ni Fabian, pero sa apat na dekadang 'yun hindi ko naramdaman na naging sapat akong tao, asawa, at babae para sakanya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kahit alam kong masasaktan ako, paulit ulit ko pa ring binabasa ang huling liham na sana ay naibigay nya sa taong totoong sinisigaw ng puso nya.

𝑯𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒌𝒐 𝒅𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒂𝒆𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒍 𝒌𝒐. 𝑯𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒌𝒊𝒕𝒂, 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒊𝒂. 𝑯𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒎 𝒌𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒈𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒏𝒈𝒂𝒚𝒐𝒏 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒂 𝒌𝒂 𝒑𝒂 𝒓𝒊𝒏.

𝑺𝒊𝒔𝒊𝒌𝒂𝒕 𝒏𝒂 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒘, 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒂 𝒌𝒂 𝒑𝒂 𝒓𝒊𝒏. 𝑷𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒂𝒈 𝒌𝒐 𝒔𝒂'𝒚𝒐 𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒂𝒚𝒐𝒔 𝒔𝒂 𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒅𝒂𝒍𝒂 𝒌𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒉𝒂𝒎 𝒏𝒂 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒐 𝒏𝒂𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒌𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒊 𝑩𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒂.

𝑯𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒐 𝒏𝒂𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒌𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒂𝒆𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒌𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒃𝒐𝒌 𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒖𝒔𝒐 𝒌𝒐. 𝑶𝒐, 𝒎𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒚𝒂 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒂. 𝑨𝒂𝒏𝒉𝒊𝒏 𝒌𝒐 𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒚𝒖𝒏 𝒌𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒂𝒌𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒂𝒚𝒂 𝒌𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒈 𝒔𝒊𝒚𝒂 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒌𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒎𝒂 𝒌𝒐?

𝑶𝒐, 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒎𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒖𝒉𝒂𝒚 𝒏𝒂 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒔𝒏𝒂𝒏 𝒎𝒐, 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒊𝒂. 𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒎 𝒌𝒐 𝒔𝒂 𝒔𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒍𝒊 𝒌𝒐 𝒏𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒍 𝒌𝒊𝒕𝒂 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒐 𝒌𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒂𝒏 𝒏𝒈 𝒌𝒂𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒂 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒂𝒚𝒂.

𝑯𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒎 𝒌𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒕 𝒌𝒂𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒌𝒊 𝒂𝒌𝒐 𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒌𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒚𝒂𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒂 𝒃𝒖𝒉𝒂𝒚, 𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒂 𝒂𝒌𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒏 𝒌𝒂, 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒊𝒂. 𝒌𝒂𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒌𝒂'𝒚 𝒅𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒌 𝒏𝒂 𝒌𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒓𝒂 𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒈. 𝑴𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒂 𝒂𝒌𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒕𝒂 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒈𝒂 𝒏𝒈𝒊𝒕𝒊 𝒎𝒐, 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒖𝒌𝒉𝒂 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒂𝒈𝒌𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒂 𝒈𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒂, 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒂 𝒂𝒌𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒏𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒎𝒅𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒚𝒂 𝒎𝒐. 𝑺𝒂 𝒑𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒚 𝒌𝒐, 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒂𝒘 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒌𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒌𝒂 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒕 𝒑𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒈𝒂 𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒚 𝒂𝒕 𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒐𝒏 𝒏𝒂 𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒎 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒌𝒖𝒌𝒖𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒐, 𝒃𝒖𝒃𝒖𝒐 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒑𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒂 𝒔𝒂'𝒚𝒐.

𝑺𝒖𝒎𝒊𝒌𝒂𝒕 𝒏𝒂 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒘. 𝑵𝒂𝒈𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒖𝒍𝒂 𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒖𝒎𝒖𝒏𝒐𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒌𝒂𝒎𝒑𝒂𝒏𝒂, 𝒉𝒖𝒅𝒚𝒂𝒕 𝒏𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒔𝒊𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒖𝒍𝒂 𝒏𝒂 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒂. 𝑯𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒂 𝒏𝒂 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒊𝒂, 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒏𝒂. 𝑯𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒎 𝒌𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒏𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒘𝒂 𝒌𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒊 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒂 𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊 𝒎𝒐 𝒂𝒌𝒐 𝒔𝒊𝒑𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒏. 𝑴𝒂𝒚𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒏 𝒏𝒈𝒂 𝒃𝒂? 𝑴𝒂𝒚 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒊 𝒏𝒈𝒂 𝒃𝒂 𝒂𝒌𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒘𝒂? 𝑴𝒂𝒍𝒊 𝒏𝒂 𝒃𝒂 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒏 𝒌𝒊𝒕𝒂? 𝑴𝒂𝒍𝒊 𝒏𝒂 𝒃𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒏 𝒌𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒌𝒂𝒘 𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒎𝒂 𝒌𝒐 𝒔𝒂 𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒂𝒑 𝒂𝒕 𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒉𝒂𝒘𝒂? 𝑴𝒂𝒍𝒊 𝒃𝒂 '𝒚𝒐𝒏?