Love Conquers All (COMPLETED)

Chapter 8

THE PAST

Techno brought Gulf home. Gulf is too silent, too silent that made Techno more worried. When they reached home. Gulf immediately went straight to his room. They're now living together since Techno's accident.

Gulf is lying on his bed staring at the ceiling 'I thought i'm done thinking about you babe, I thought I couldn't feel the pain anymore. It's still there' He tried to stop his self but he just can't he stand up and get some wine out of the fridge and went back to his room, open his laptop and look up for the file he's been hiding. He can't stop his self from crying. 

Techno wanted to check if Gulf is okay. He knocks the door but no one answers, he opened it using the spare key and what he see broke him. Gulf is lying on the floor with laptop on his lap and wine beside him. 'Gulf, you shouldn't be drinking, you're still sick.'

Techno, why? why does he have to die? why him? I thought I've already moved on but the pain is still here Techno, it's still there as fresh at it was six years ago. I thought I'm okay now. I'm wrong Techno, I'm fucking wrong. I can't forget him. Look at this, this is the design I've made for our house. It's supposed to be a surprise but I didn't have the chance to show this to him.

FLASHBACK

'Babe, I have a colon cancer stage 4, I only have few months left. I'm sorry baby.'

'I know, your doctor told me a while ago! why you didn't tell me about this before? why? don't you trust me?'

'no, i trust you, i just don't want to hurt you. I don't want you to worry about me, you should focus in reaching your dreams'

'no, what's the use of my dreams if i don't have you with me, The doctor told me that if you'll have chemotherapy you might leave a little longer. Let's go with it babe, We'll use all the savings we have.' 

'No babe, you shouldn't. There's no more hope. You can use that savings for your future'

'no, babe i can't imagine my future without you please let me do it'

I tried the best I can to save my beloved boyfriend. I stopped going to school and work double shifts and visit him in the hospital when i'm free. He doesn't know what I'm doing. I have to hide it from him or else he'll stop me. Seeing him in pain everyday hurts me so bad but i have to keep strong, i know he's fighting for me. So I'll fight for him. Just few weeks in the hospital we're already running out of money. He's ex band mates gave us little money to help us and they arranged a charity concert for him but still, it's not enough. I don't have a choice and i'm so desperate. I sell almost everything we have in the apartment. Then, I went to his father's office.

'Please, sir! help your son. He needs you, he needs money for his chemo, please help him a I'll do everything  I can, just please help him please sir. He can't die. Help him please sir. I'm begging you' I pleaded. But his father didn't listen to me. 

I feel so hopeless, I ask anyone I know for help but no one does even his father. Now, I'm going to my father's house. I don't know what will happen to me inside the house I used to live before, I know my father hates me but I'm desperate.

'Dad, please, please help me, Tharn has cancer, we need money for his chemo, please dad, please help me. I'll do everything you want me to do just please help me dad. I can't leave without him. Please dad, I'm begging you'

'i'll help you only if you'll leave him and go back to me. Then, forget all bout him'

'dad, I can't'

'then, he'll die'

'okay dad but promise me, you'll shoulder all his expenses until he's okay and i'll stop seeing him'

'okay, here's the check. That's for the next chemo. I'll handle the rest when you'll be back here'

I left and go straight to the hospital. I felt weak when i see him with open arms waiting for me to hug him. 'Babe, i'm here, guess what you can have your next chemo, I've borrowed money.' He caressed my face and wipe all my tears. I can feel his getting weaker. 

'Babe please, please fight for me, don't leave me yet, I'm not ready. I can't live without you please' Rivers of tears flowed from my eyes.' 

'Babe, i can't do it anymore. please promise me you'll be strong. Promise me you can do it without me. You'll reach all your dreams. I'll be there in the sky. I'll be watching you' He said weakly. 

i hugged him so tight until  I couldn't feel his breath anymore. 'No, no, no please babe, wake up you can't leave me. Doc. help please' 

the doctors tried to revive Tharn but they failed 'Time of death, 7: 13, i'm sorry for your loss. please excuse us. 

'Tharn, please don't leave me, you promised me right? you promised me,no, no babe, i still have a surprise for you. please yu promised me. You promised that you'll always stay beside me' i cried until i collapsed. 

When I wake up, I can only see Techno.

'Where's Tharn? where's my babe?'

'I'm sorry Gulf, Tharn's family got his dead body last night. They said they'll cremate him'

end of flashback

 I just want to cry and forget everything but I can't. He died and what's more painful is that he died but i wasn't able to help him.

'Techno, if i just stayed away from him, he wouldn't have to die, if i wasn't selfish he should be alive until now. Techno, it hurts, it hurts so bad, it hurts so bad that i couldn't help but blame myself for what happened to him. I was so selfish while he was selfless.' Techno just hugged me.

Techno just hugged his friend as tight and warm as he can for him to feel he's not alone. He could feel the pain Gulf feels. He also know that Gulf has been blaming his self even until now. He stayed still and let Gulf hug him and cry all he want. Until Gulf feel asleep in his embrace. He carried gulf and put him in the bed. He was about to go out when Gulf is having nightmare again 'please stay, please don't leave me' 'I wont I'm just here' He lay down beside Gulf and hug him. The last time he saw Gulf in this state was six years ago. 

'Tharn, buddy how are you up there? I'm sorry if I failed to protect Sky from this, please help me in taking care of him' He said while look at the ceiling.

'Just fight, I know you're strong. You can do it. Life must go on I'm just here to help you and will always be here' He said while looking at Gulf.