Mi Amor (Completed)

Chapter 10

This is the last chapter of Mi Amor! Short story lang 'to. Gusto ko lang mawala sa utak ko. Hindi kasi ako pinapatulog, e. Anyways, thank you for reading. Inspired to sa song na Ghost of You ng 5sos, literal na ghost nga lang 'yung character hehe. Pinaiyak kasi ako ng kantang iyan. Huhu. Ito rin habang sinusulat ko, iyak ako ng iyak, papansin lang HAHAHAHA char. Thank you for reading! kekeke.

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Patuloy kami sa pagsasayaw, nakasandal ang ulo ko sa dibdib niya. Pinapakinggan kung may natibok pa, mapait ring napangiti ng walang narinig o naramdaman. Making me realize more that he's gone.

"You're really leaving me now," I whispered, trying to hide my tears. I can hear my voice cracking.

"I'm not. I'll still watch you, from above."

But I want you to watch me here, beside me. Not above.

"My heart's hurting. I can't breathe properly." I said.

I can feel it shattering slowly. It's killing me.

Idinikit niya ako lalo sa kanya. I hugged him tightly while still swaying with him.

"I love you, I love you so much, I love you so damn much." I repeatedly uttered.

Paulit-ulit. Para mapunan ang mga taong hindi ko masasabi iyon sa kanya at hindi niya maririnig. Will he still remember me there? Can I move on? Can I love again? Am I going to be okay?

I have so many questions on my mind now but it's still falling in the fact that he's leaving me. Totoong-totoo na.

"I want you to be happy," he whispered.

I want to, I want to be happy with you. But that's impossible.

"I will," I said.

"Don't hesitate to open your heart to someone again. Let yourself love fully again."

I don't think I can do that. Kahit siguro lumipas ang ilang taon ay hindi mababawasan ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya. Sure, may makakapasok na iba, pero siya pa rin ang pinakalaman ng puso ko.

"I will," I asnwered.

"Live peacefully, live you life fully. Spend time with your family and friends. Huwag ka lang magmumukmok dito sa condo, hmm?"

I don't think I can do that also. Ngayon pa lang ay gusto ko nalang magkulong dito sa bahay at umiyak ng maghapon at magdamag.

"I will, for you."

"Do it for yourself." He said.

I just nodded and hugged him more tightly.

Gusto ko na lang dito, kung panaginip man 'to, ayoko ng magising. Magising sa katotohanan na wala na siya, na iiwan noya na ako, na hindi ko na siya kailan man makilita o makakasama.

"Always remember that I love you, you're the most lovable person I've ever met. And I'm not even regretting that." He sincerely said.

"I love you too, so damn much." Damn much that I'm hurting badly. Hindi ko alam kung matitigil pa ba itong sakit na nararamdaman ko.

"Why won't you cry?" He asked. "You need to released that."

I smiled and shooked my head. "I don't want to cry. I want you to remember me smiling before you left."

A tear escape on his eyes. "You're crying." I said with my voice cracked.

"I'm so lucky to be loved by you, mi amor."

"I am lucky to be loved by you too." I said.

"Smile, mi amor. Smile for me. I want you to be happy. Huwag mo na ako isipin. Sarili mo naman." I told him.

Ngumiti siya. "I want to stay, pero hindi pwede. I don't want to hurt you more."

Tumango ako at ngumiti. "I understand, Gio."

I cupped his face and wipe his wet cheeks. I planted a kiss on his lips. Hinayaan ko iyon doon ng ilang minuto. Kung pwede lang ay hindi ko na tatanggalin.

I showered kisses on his whole face.

"I love you, oh my god. I want to cry." I whispered the last sentence to myself.

"I have one last request, mi amor." I weakly uttered.

Inangat ko ang tingin sa kanya at ngumiti. I memorized his face, his smile, his smiling eyes.

"What is it, my love?"

"Leave when I'm asleep," I requested.

He smiled and nodded. "I will."

Ngumiti ako ng mapait.

He's leaving, he's leaving me. Hindi ko na talaga siya makikita, makakasama, mahahawakan, maririnig. Mawawala na ang kalahati ng pagkatao ko. My other half.

Nang lumalim na ang gabi ay pumasok na kami sa kwarto. I don't want to sleep but I need to.

Ipinikit ko ang mga mata at mapait na ngumiti.

"I love you," I whispered. I felt him cupped my face and planted a kiss on my forehead.

I can feel his stare at me. Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras na akong nakapikit at nanatiling hindi gumagalawa.

I can still feel his stare. I can hear his sighs. I can hear him sniffing. I can hear him crying. I badly want to cry too but I stop. myself. I can't cry. Not now. I know any seconds that he's leaving na.

"I love you, mi amor." I heard him whispered. I felt his hand caressing my hair.

"I'm sorry for leaving too early," he said before planting a kissed on my forehead.

"I'm sorry for hurting you."

"I am sorry for everything. I love you so much. Good bye." He whispered.

Pinanatili kong pikit ang mga mata. A tear falls on my eyes when I can't feel his presence anymore.

He's gone! He's really gone now!

Umupo ako sa kama at paulit-ulit na sumigaw.

He's gone! He leave me already!

It hurts so damn much! Ang sakit sakit. Parang binibiyak ang puso ko.

I cried loudly, shouting my pain out.

After an hours of crying in pain.

I smiled bitterly and look up.

"I love you. Good bye, mi amor."