Love in the Time of Corona

29

I didn't really thought that I could recall all those things and keep my posture decent. If this would've been the usual where I would get asked with questions that for almost two years, I kept avoiding. It was too much for me to handle, but I have no one to blame but myself.

  

"Krystal, why didn't you tell us? We could've helped you recover from such... tragedy." Kio was very careful with his words, which is totally unnecessary. I understand that he's trying to be subtle with me, but there's no need. I knew in the back of my mind that I'll have to let go eventually.

"Dad knew. He was the only one I told about everything." I lowered my head. "I felt too ashamed to tell you. I'm supposed to be a good example, since I'm older... but just because of my pride, a life got taken away." 

"Is that why you wanted to get away with whatever's going on with Caden?" Kio asked straight-forwardly. He must've sensed that there's no room for hesitations at the moment.

"No," I disagreed. "I just thought that it's probably the time that I choose myself. I thought I was being selfless, even when I was with Giancarlo... when all this time, I'm actually being selfish." I bitterly kidded. Kio chuckled as well.

"We all have our inner narcissist, y'know?" 

"As a matter of fact, we do... but usually, it doesn't kill people, Kio." And somehow, the tight air that's giving me a constricted feeling has loosened up. Kio casually wraps me in a hug.

"You can tell me everything, K. Remember that." He lightly tapped his head against mine.

"So do you." I replied playfully. He lets go of me.

"You said you heard nothing!" 

"So who's Liv?" 

He sighs, "Liv's my... girlfriend." My narrow eyes automatically rounded.

"What the hell?" 

"Turns out... I'm bi. I am attracted to men, yes, but I am with women too." He clarifies. The confusion I have is still there, but I'm happy he's coming out to me.

"So. Liv. Where did you met her? Is she from the same school?" 

"Nope. We met online. Actually, we're going on a date next week. Wanna come?" He offered.

I shook my head. "I'm going home next week."

He furrowed his brows. "Why? You're home! Plus, your mom enjoys being here, with Dad, if I should mention."

"Is that supposed to mean something?" It was my turn to be confused.

"Yes. Do you not even realize why your mom didn't go out of her room earlier?" And that literally made me want to puke. A million things spiraled into my head, disgusting thoughts to be exact.

I gagged. I looked away. I don't really thought of it that way. I mean, I guess they're allowed to do those things since they're still together legally, but it's just doesn't feel right! If they wanted to reconcile, why just now? That's totally ridiculous.

"HEY! Don't jump into conclusions. I'm just stating my observations... which might be accurate." Kio bursted my thought bubbles. I don't know what to think or what to feel.

Should I be happy that my separated parents are getting back together? Should I just forget all the moments of pain I have to go through just because of their rash decisions? I know I shouldn't be overthinking but I can't just act as if nothing's going on.

"So. Where do we go now?" Kio asks.

"To Caden's." I say, with hopes that things won't get messy.

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HELLI THIS IS AN INTERMISSION FEOM THE AUTHOR, WHICH IS ME, LOU. I... I am eternally grateful of you, dear reader, for reading this measly story. I love you ^.^