Diary of a Missing Piece

Scene 13 - Feelings unfold

Part 12 of F  L  A  S  H     B  A  C  K

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The following day, alarm clock strikes at 6am. I'm in a rush that I absolutely proceed to the bathroom from my bed. After that, I dressed up at once so I can go to school as early as possible.

"Good morning mom! Is breakfast ready?" I was getting down the stairs while banding my hair like a pony tail. 

Mom looked at her wrist watch and said, "Honey, are you . . .  sick or something?? It's too early yet. I'm still preparing for your meal." 

"But Ashley goes to school at 6:30. We'll have to review our lessons before the class starts. Alright, I really need to go now. I'm gonna eat breakfast in school, promise!" 

"Wait, take these bread rolls to fill your tummy!"

"Mom, I'm in a rush. G'bye!" ^_~

"Hmm?? Reid Williams, I'll be mad if you won't take these."  >:-)

I took a pause from walking outward and then grabbed the bread. "Okay,okay. I'll take this one! Thanks mom. Love yah!"

"Here's the key, be careful with your driving! And remember,  this is the first and last time that you'll be going to school alone, okay? I'll pick you up later! Goodbye sweety!"

"Bye!Bye!"

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At the school library. Gotcha! There's Ashley. I immediately get inside.

"Hey, Ashley!!!" I waved at her. Am I excited to see her that much?? I forgot about the "SILENCE PLEASE". Grrr.

"SSsssshhhh. Come here." Ashley said in a very weak voice. I sat beside her. "Congratulations, you're so early today. Are you ready for your Math tutorial?" Ashley grinned.

"Of course, I am. Ooops, those were sounds from my tummy. I'm sorry about that. Haha!"

"Well, you haven't taken your breakfast yet, have you?" 

"Mmmm... don't mind it. C'mon, let's have the tutorial."

"No, come on. We're gonna eat first. Let's do this in the taproom." She held my left arm and together we run through the taproom. It was like heaven when I felt her soft hand holding my arm and now, holding my hand. We're holding each of our hands together. Lord, I'm not supposed to feel this way. What's this??

We finally reached the taproom. "Hey, Reid! Why are you so mum? We're here now. What's your order?" 

"Huh? Ahmm... oh yeah, yeah. My order. . . ahmm... I'll go for yours." WTF! What kind of order was that?? Wake up, Reid. You can't be like this. 

"Are you okay? I think that's the main effect of your hunger! HAHA! Then, next time you should eat first before school, okay?" "So I'm gonna take beef tenderloin steak, how about you? You'll go for my order?"

"Yes, I like that one."

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                                        -Six months later-

 I was writing on a red notebook.

"Ashley has been a very good friend of mine. She taught me a lot of things: views, dreams, and ambitions in life.  She's been a good influence for me. I got high grades and became better in Math because of her aid. She helped me forget about my past and helped me face a new life.  I enjoyed each and every moment when I'm with her. I tried not to feel this weird feeling for her because I know she won't accept it. Perhaps, she will never like it.  We're friends, actually best friends for more than a half year. That's why I'm afraid to confess my true feelings, I don't wanna lose this friendship, I can't. I can't.  What am I gonna do? I'm so sick and tired of holding this feeling inside my head. I once promised that I'll never be one of those freakin' lesbians in St. John Villa Academy but why is it like this?? What happened to me?? I got a secret love for a girl, for my best friend! Sounds creepy but it's true. I have fallen for this girl named Ashley and as of now, I don't know how to run away from this crime.  I love you Ashley, I love you so much. I just wish that I was a man, a man who can lawfully love a woman like you."

"Hey, what's that?"  Ashley asked.

"Oh! Nothing. It's just... just a diary! You can't read this."

She laughed in a pissed way. "Diary? HAHAHA! Is it still faddy? You're in with the OLD! By the way, it's Saturday tomorrow. Wanna go out for shopping? Let's have a date!"

"Date? Are you crazy? What date are you talkin' about?"

"Friends Date! Wanna go?"

"Tss. Friends date, what else should I expect." I whispered.

"What? Did you say something?" 

"Oh, I said I wanna go. Let's meet at 9am tomorrow."

"Alright!"

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