Kahit nanghihina sa nangyari, pinilit ko ang sarili kong tumayo at umalis sa kandungan ni Ram. My cheeks are red and I quickly fixed my dress. Medyo nalukot pa iyon kaya napapikit ako ng mariin.
Damn it! What are we doing?! What am I thinking?!
Hell, I am not innocent! I just fucking had an orgasm! I can still feel the sticky liquid in between me!
"I'll clean myself up and change..." Tanging nasabi ko pagtayo.
What am I supposed to say? I can't find the right words! He just fucking made me... fuck I can't even say it!
"Alright... Should I leave now?" Malambing ang boses nya.
Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at inabala ang sarili sa pagtatanggal ng abubot sa katawan. I'm gonna take a bath. Iniisip ko pa lang kapag tinanong ako ni Colin o ni Achki kung bakit ako nagpalit, hindi ko na alam ang idadahilan ko. I just hope they are now drunk so I can be peaceful.
"You should..." Ani ko.
"I'll wait outside, Miss Allura."
Hindi na ako nagsalita at hindi ko na rin sya nilingon. Ilang saglit pa, narinig ko ang pagbukas at pagsara ng pinto ng kwarto ko. Saka lamang ako nakahinga nang maluwag.
Pumikit ako nang mariin habang nakatitig sa vanity mirror. Tinanggal ko ang pagkakatali ng buhok at hinayaang bumagsak iyon. I bit my lips so hard out of frustration.
Alright! Let's fucking start with this... I have needs. I am an adult, okay? I have fucking needs! He has too! Walang masama doon! We both... liked it! We got carried away so we ended up doing... that.
Hindi ko nga lang maintindihan kung bakit ang bilis kong nabibigay ang halik ko kay Ram ngunit hindi sa mga lalaking may gusto sa akin. O sa mga naging ex ko noon. It will take so much time or I have to be drunk for them to have a chance to kiss me.
Ito... hindi naman ako lasing pero...
Fuck this shit, Allura Chianti!
Fine! He's my type so it's understandable that I am sexually attracted to him, right? He's handsome, alright! His body is toned and the way he walks is so manly! Pati kung paano nya dalhin ang sarili at ang mga damit, talagang lalaking lalaki.
Anong mali? We're both adults and it's consensual. Nothing's wrong with that. And I'm single so... it's really fine. Oh! Is he single?! He must be! I'll clear that part later. I fucking hate cheaters so he must be single or else... I'm gonna slice his finger and dick off! I swear!
Hinubad ko ang dress na suot saka pumasok sa banyo. I opened the shower and closed my eyes as the water ran through my face down to my body.
Damn, I can still feel his fingers on me! What the hell?!
Padabog kong kinuha ang shampoo at inalis ang mga naiisip. Naglagay na rin ako ng conditioner at mabilis na sinabon ang buong katawan. Binilisan ko na ang pagligo dahil may mga bisita pa akong aasikasuhin! Bakit ba nakalimutan ko iyon kanina?!
I just wore another simple black dress. Longsleeve iyon at turtle neck. Glittery rin kaya pasok pa rin sa theme ng party.
Tinignan ko ang sarili ko sa salamin. I just did a light and simple makeup because I am not in the mood anymore to glam myself up. Mukha akong inosente at conservative dito sa suot ko. Malayong malayo sa dress ko kanina... at sa ginawa namin ni Ram.
He waited outside my room, like usual. Nagpanggap akong wala lang iyon at dire-diretsong naglakad pababa. Nakasunod naman sya sa akin at naiilang ako sa hindi malamang kadahilanan.
"Allure! Saan ka galing? Kanina pa kita hinahanap!"
Kinagat ko ang labi ko nang nakasalubong namin si Colin habang pababa. Mukhang paakyat sya para hanapin ako. Shit! Buti na lang at binilisan ko kung hindi ay mabubuking ako ng gagang 'to! I know how his mind works! We've been friends since 8th grade!
BINABASA MO ANG
Sober, I'll Come Over (Revelry Series #1)
Storie d'amoreParty, booze, and loud music. Revelry is what her life is. Allura Ciervo always lives up to her name-alluring everyone. She tainted their family name, they said, because of her escapades. She needs to sober up, they said, and uphold their surname. ...
