Without A Doubt

Chapter 29.

Mayson's POV

After Emma and I left the locker room I was sort of feeling a little better, but as soon as I was in class listening to Ms. Scott lecture I started to get that hollow feeling again. I felt my no speaking ordinance go back into effect. I could feel Emma staring at me, but I didn't care. I just put my head on the desk and listened to Ms. Scott drone on about the new book.

I can't get Liv out of my head. I just keep thinking of all the worst things possible. I'm in so much trouble. She's never going to forgive me for this. She's probably going to break up with me now. Then what? What am I supposed to do without her? She's just become a constant in my life. How am I just supposed to adjust to her not being there, not texting me every day, not smiling at me during club, not telling me that she likes me. I could feel my breathing start to speed up. I pushed the thoughts down and ignored what I was feeling. The hollow feeling came back and it was in full force. I then felt my brain start to shut down. My thoughts dissipated, and my body felt exhausted. It was hard to even keep my eyes open after a while. Behind the silence in my head, I could hear Ms. Scott talking still. Before I knew it I didn't hear anything.

"What the fuck?" I practically screamed. I sat up from my sleep to see Emma standing over me.

"I'm sorry but the bell rang." I stood up and looked around and saw that there was no one else here. I picked up my backpack and started for the door.

"Fine. Let's go." I was already walking passed Ms. Scotts desk when she gave me a concerned look. I gave her my best 'I'm fine' smile and walked out without her stopping me.

Emma and I walked all the way to the locker room without having to see anyone from any of our teams. The walk was long and quiet. I just want to see Liv. I haven't seen her and because of that I have no way of knowing what she's thinking. She hasn't even texted me or called me.

"Oh shit!" I screamed right as we were about to get to the locker room. Emma jumped and then screamed back,

"What? What happened?"

"My phones been off!" I pulled it out of my back pocket and turned it on. Emma and I had stopped in the middle of the hallway to see what was going on. As soon as it was on I started getting all the notifications from Liv, the ones from Emma, the group messages. I looked back at the ones from Liv. They started off with her being worried about me.

Mayson I'm sorry

Are you okay?

Mayson text me back

Is your phone off?

Mayson please this isn't funny

You know what, whatever

Apparently, you have a lot of girls hitting on you. I guess I'm just another one of them

At reading the last one I stopped breathing. I felt my hands start to shake. Who the hell told her that? I've only said it to the boys, and I was just being honest when I said it. I didn't mean for her to ever hear that. Shit, shit, shit. Emma took the phone out of my hand and started looking through the messages.

"Mayson what is she talking about?" I ran my hands through my hair.

"It was just something I said to the boys. I didn't mean it like that. I swear." I could feel this sensation traveling through my body. I don't know what it was, or what it meant, but I know I was freaking out.

"Hey, it's okay. We're going to fix this." Thank god we're late; there's no one in the hallway. I backed up against the wall and tried to breathe.