Divergent Future

Chapter 18

Tobias's POV

I toss and turn yet again, and with another sigh, I sit up in my bed.

Even though I took my sleeping pill last night, I've been tossing and turning for most of the night. I slept peacefully for about four or five hours, and I've been awake since then.

I am just bursting with excitement!

I honestly cannot believe that we are telling Toby that I'm his dad today!

I finally get to tell him that I've loved him this whole time and that I will never leave his side ever again. I finally get to call him my son, my kid, my child, and he can finally call me his dad.

A small part of me is anxious that he won't take it well. Or that he'll feel hurt that we hadn't told him sooner. But I really do think that he'll be as excited as I am. I mean, he told me that he wants to meet his dad and know more about him.

And it's finally happening today.

I pick up my phone and sigh when I see that it's 7:00. I still have so much time to kill before I'm supposed to meet them.

I scroll through my contacts, trying to find Tris's, and when I do, a wave of memories floods over me. I haven't changed her name in my phone since we broke up.

I shake my head to try and get rid of the thoughts and type out the text that I want to send to her.

Me: Hey, Tris! I know that it's early, and you're probably still asleep. But I just wanted to say thank you for letting me do this today! Toby means the world to me, and I cannot wait to be in his life for good! I'll be at your place at 12:00 to pick you two up for this special day!!!

I throw my phone down on my bed after I send it and walk over to my closet. Since I'm already up, I might as well get ready for this amazing day.

I end up picking out some black jeans and a navy blue t-shirt. I take the outfit into the bathroom and hop into the shower. This morning, since I have the time, I allow myself to linger longer than I usually do.

For so long, shower thoughts were dark thoughts for me. Shower thoughts used to consist of cutting and swallowing pills that I'm not supposed to take and maybe "accidentally" submerging myself in the water for too long. Shower thoughts were dangerous, and the longer I stayed in the shower, the more real the thoughts became. The more the thoughts became possibilities.

But today, nothing can bring me down. No bad thoughts whatsoever. I don't want to have those thoughts again because I am promising myself and Toby and Tris that I will never leave Toby. I will always be here for him.

So my shower today is filled with the endless possibilities of how this amazing day could go. The same image of him smiling from ear to ear as we tell him about me plays through my head on replay. The excitement on his face afterwards.

This will be the best day ever. And nothing will ruin it for me.

Absolutely nothing.

Once I've decided that I've spent enough time daydreaming, I hop out of the shower and throw on the outfit I picked out. I dry and brush my hair out, brush my teeth, and then walk back into my room to pick out shoes. I eventually decide on a pair of white converse, and once I slide those on, I walk out of my room and into the kitchen.

Since I still have quite a lot of time until I'm supposed to meet them, I might as well cook a huge breakfast that everybody can enjoy.

I get out of the ingredients and items that I need, turn some music on, and start fixing the breakfast. Before I know it, I've fixed bacon, sausage patties, scrambled eggs, pancakes, and toast. I set it all out on the island and load up a plate for myself. I pour myself a glass of orange juice and take my food over to the dining room table to eat.